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The 'avid' blogger is back!

2007-03-19T19:40:00.003+10:30

What irony! After announcing my return, i stop bloggin for more den a month! hehehe.. sorry la.. sent my laptop for repair rite after the last post and it took 2wks.. so yeah.. lost momentum.

Anyways, life's been quite well-balanced! The workload has been manageable, keeping me moderately occupied.. it hasnt been all work and no play either! my calender was peppered with enuf social activities to keep me satisfied. hehehe.. On top of that, i joined my uni's soccer club. Been training for a couple of wks now. There're quite a no. of new comers so competition is quite tough. The uni currently has 5 squads... possibly 6 due to the response.. I'm currently placed in the 5th squad. Altho my frens in the other squads have told me dat i've been unfairly over-looked and merit a place more den others in their squads, i'm not bothered. I'm happy juz playing soccer. Eventually, i will move up the ranks. no doubt!

Life in 'the village' (my hostel) has been great as well. I've forged budding friendships with 3 msians Joanne, Shu ai and Sung as well as Derek who's from hk. They've made life at home so much more vibrant! Yesterday, the 5 of us along with 35 other village peeps went surfing! Surfing is super-duper fun! too bad i didnt manage to stand and balance on my surf board... its alot harder den it looks... oh wells.. body surfing alone was enuf for me! u really go fast! quite exhilarating! definitely jump at any chance to surf again. (provided i hav money la!) haha..

Ok.. thats all for today.. gotta go search for something i lost! shit... but before i go.. juz wanna say.. Borat is the worse movie ever! no idea how it could be nominated at oscars.. it was rite? sucky show... ok.. gtg.. bye bye

2007-02-13T11:12:00.000+10:30

Yes, after yet another hiatus (its gettin very common!), i have blogged again. Guess i've been 'busy' with my exams haha.. so glad bridging is over! wat a waste of my time! heheh.. anyways, evanescence is in town and i'll be goin to their concert tonite. They're one of Joanne's favourite bands so we're goin together. It'l be the very first time at a concert for both of us! quite exciting!

Haiz.. abt a third into the hols! so fast! still have to send my laptop for repair! cant find the time to do it! guess i hav to send in on thurs morning, juz before i head for the beach.. ah... so rush! the thot of no com, no internet for the rest of the wk is dreadful!

ok, gotta get dressed! meetin a fren at rundle to do last min v day shopping! hahah

Tired and Aching.. Happy nonetheless!!

2007-01-14T16:18:00.000+10:30

Its been a physically tiring week! Firstly i played tennis with my econs tutor on thurs.. he is freaking good! tortured me on the court haha.. should become a wkly affair. it'll be extremely gd practice and exercise for myself. hahaha. Secondly, i finally played a game of soccer on sat!!! hooray! it was extremely enjoyable, with lots of laughter and good fun. Thankfully, its gonna be a weekly affair! awesome!

Anyways, my bridging sem is coming to a close... exams in a month? so gotta start my revision! Even though im highly unmotivated right now and have been gettin gd grades w/o much studying, i cant afford to slacken anymore. Time to buck up and do singapore proud! hahaha... So yeah, a promise to myself... alot less FM and a whole lot more of studying! (tmr onwards.. hahaha.. im entitled to rest on sun! hehehe..)

2007

2007-01-01T21:45:00.000+10:30

Yet another new year has commenced!!! ok, the exclamations are a tad hypocritical since im not exicited abt the new year at all. INDIFFERENT. oh wells.. i haven't blog in wks! hehehe.. sorry.. life (well most aspects) has become a monotonous routine... yeah.. so nothing much to report abt. my 21st was very quiet, juz had lunch and dinner with various frens.. i spent my xmas doing spring cleaning! haha.. but very glad i did, love my fridge now! i actually cleared 4 bags of rotten food and trash etc from it!!! yes extremely gross...

Yesterday, i took to the streets for the new yr countdown with some frens. I have to admit its pretty scary.. the way the ang mohs let loose! are they really dat pent-up? lolz and wats with all dat booze? esp the gals.. no respect for them, really.. no respect for themselves.. haiz.. infact, a minor brawl broke out right infront of us at one pt. after that i was a little worried cuz bein the eldest i felt responsible for all my frens safety, esp since most r girls. Anyways, the fireworks display at the end was quite spectacular! almost 15mins.. a pity i couldn't seal it with a special ****!

Sigh.. term restarts tmr.. and i haven't done any of my holiday hw! hehehe.. well it ain't alot.. urgh.. cant stand the english assignment, ridiculous! so 'primary sch'. a practice english summary report!?! hello? i speak english 24/7!?!? sianz. oh wells..

ok goin to bed now.. very short of slp!

Gentle Reminder to All!

2006-12-01T22:09:00.000+10:30

Everyone, pls note my 21st is exactly 2wks from today! hahaha.. Although i dun expect any prezzies, cmon nobody noes my address anyways, here's my wishlist:

1. nice and comfy flip-flops

2. Medium-sized frying/sauce pan (base has to be flat cuz i use a hotplate stove)

3. Berms! i only hav 2 pairs now!

4. Pillow or boslter (jusz heard it is essential for keeping ur back straight if u slp sideways)

ok i think dats all i need.

WARNING: Do Not Leave Cooking Oil Unattended!!!!

2006-11-16T21:10:00.000+10:30

Wat irony... the day my american hsemate ,Dan, cleans up the hse (he's leaving so there's an inspection) i have to set the kitchen on FIRE!!! yeah im serious, no laughing matter.. I'm ok, juz scalded my legs abit. sigh... my freaking pot of oil COMBUSTED! nvr expected it to happen... oh mans.. all i wanted to do was deep-fry some prawn fritters!! now im probably goin to be slapped with a hefty bill. arrgghh!

I juz left my pot of oil to heat up on the stove, while i went to dice my garlic and prepare my vegatables. Next thing i noe, i hear a 'prooof' sound and i turn ard to see my pot in flames!! couldn't hav been more den a couple of mins! In a state of panic, i did something really really stupid! i grabbed the pot and tried to douse the flames by pouring the oil away in the sink. sheer stupidity! cuz in retrospect, its obvious i was merely fueling tne flames with more hot oil! Naturally, the flames blew sky high at my sink, forcing me to throw the pot onto the floor scalding me in the process.. Afterwhich, i rushed for my fire extinguisher and put out the fire.

Alarm rings and lots of cleaning up later, the damage done was minimal. My kitchen bench top was slightly damaged (but i noe repairs are goin to be costly. it is the most expensive thing in my hse) abd my floor has some burnt marks. damn it! i shud hav juz rushed for the fire extinguisher right away!

So frens, i say again, DO NOT LEAVE OIL UNATTENDED! it could juz start boiling and burst into flames!

2006-11-15T19:03:00.000+10:30

hmmm.. suppose to be doin mu english assigment now, but mental block la! haiz, such an easy assignment yet i can't churn up anything! can't seem to focus now, my heartbeat is irregular! haha.. so decided to blog, to clear my thoughts and emotions. Its been nearly a month in adelaide.. boy how time fies! my overseas stints with saf nvr felt so quick! haha.. well, im not complaining...

To those who are curious, im not homesick at all! I dun even miss our local food haha.. i guess im pretty resilient. Sch's been alright, but i wished it could be more challenging. This bridging cse was designed to prepare me for uni but i dun feel prepared at all! Sometimes i feel im wasting time and money. I feel i work better under stress. (but of cuz not too pressurised either) Im not highly motivated by nature, sigh..so gotta learn how to push myself.

Got an econs test on fri, my first test in 3 yrs?!? oh wait, i did a surprised math test on the first day of orientation. haha.. anyways, i was really confused with the various concepts up until today. Thankfully, i was able to regain clarity after today's lesson. Its all in the graphs! So im hoping to do well! Nxt up wud be computing, think its on Mon, better check with my classmates.. gonna be tested on ms word haha.. may sound ridiculous, but i really learnt alot of useful functions etc. dun understimate lessons on word haha.

Damn it! arrgghh.. still can't focus... hmmm i hav to get it off my chest!!! Is it wrong to try to find faults with a potential gf?!? i feel im over-analysing things! Every little thing she says, her dislikes, her preferences, her quirky side, her opinions.. do they match with mine? or do they clash? It seems dat im fighting my heart, my intuition, my emotions with logic! y am i focusing on the negatives and not the positives? its too soon, i shudn't be feelin this way. arrgghh... such torture! i shud wait it out, its only my 4th wk. there's no rush rite? i'll meet someone more suited for me in the future rite? juz so difficult to reason with the heart! argghh.. feel so uneasy now juz cuz i didn't speak to her today (juz couple of smiles and waves of hi/bye). its so ridculous! hahaha..

ok this is not helping! haiz.. gotta get back to the assignment! ciao

2006-11-07T20:35:00.000+10:30

the beautiful jacarandia tree. there's a whole street planted with this tree one block frm my hse

2006-11-07T20:29:00.000+10:30

the main lobby, stylo huh?

2006-11-07T20:26:00.000+10:30

the uni village, where i live!

2006-11-07T20:24:00.000+10:30

more of torrens river

2006-11-06T22:03:00.000+10:30

Granite island, just off of victor harbour

2006-11-05T01:39:00.000+10:30

Torrens River, simply breathtaking!

2006-11-05T01:38:00.000+10:30

garden of roses

2006-11-05T01:30:00.000+10:30

some beautiful church we stumbled upon haha

Annual X'mas Pageant

2006-11-05T01:26:00.000+10:30

They let the kids scribble chalk on the roads and sidewalks!!!

bradford frens

2006-11-05T01:23:00.000+10:30

Jessie (m'sia) Serene (s'pore) and Pete (hk)

2006-11-05T01:15:00.000+10:30

the HK gang

Bradford classmates

2006-11-05T01:08:00.000+10:30

Canary (hk) and Nancy (china)

Glenelg Beach

2006-11-05T01:06:00.000+10:30

outing with my Uni Village mates!

Bradford classmate

2006-11-05T01:00:00.000+10:30

Eric and I

you get what u pay for

2006-11-02T21:45:00.000+10:30

Cheap goods are cheap for a reason! haha.. Firstly, my cheapo hi-fi that i bought is damn lousy la. Which hi-fi resets its volume everytime u switch it off?!?! so irritating to adjust my volume everytime i switch it on! haha.. to compound things.. it came with a useless remote. the remote only allows u to control the cd player, with only the options play pause next etc wat the hell man.. wat remote doesn't have vol controls or a POWER button?!?!?! and i only discovered this after specially buyin the AAA batt.. waste money sia..
Anyways, i saved the best for last. Guess wat? my cheapo alarm clock rings an hr earlier den the pre-set time! One fine morning, i'm awaken by the alarm wondering why i feel so lethargic even though i had slpt early the nite before. without giving it much thought i commenced my morning routine. After washing up, i was stunned to see the time on the clock as 710am?!?! (i set my alarm at 730). I proceeded to check my hp's clock juz to confirm and it also said 710. i.e my clock rang an hr early!!! hilarious haha.. i tested the theory the next day by setting it to 830 and it really rang at 730! *shakeshead*

2006-11-01T23:02:00.000+10:30

Since arriving in Adelaide, i've been mistaken as Japanese not only by my fellow singaporeans but by Japanese themselves! haha.. I'm sure la.. One m'sian, Jessie, was even more specific. said i look like tayuka kimura (hope i got his name rite). When to google him, i 'VERY' look like hime la! weird how pple determine resemblance. haha.. anyways, Jessie is one really really nice girl. She juz lives around the corner from my hse. Not only did she treat Serene and I to dinner once, yesterday nite she brought me green bean soup (fyi i only had instant mee for dinner) and today she made me red bean soup! I am so PAMPERED! haha.. even my hsemates are envious hehehe.. So juz wanna express my deepest gratitude to her! Thank you Jessie!

Life in Adelaide

2006-10-31T17:40:00.000+10:30

Yay! finally got my internet set-up! the past 10 days have been pretty boring with the world wide web! haha.. anyways, i'll like to start defending adelaide, cuz i really love it here. the weather is soooo much better den s'pore! i'll take cold weather or scorching sun over 100% humidity anytime! hahah.. yeah.. so tho i've said its been boring.. its not so much the city's fault. its juz dat its the exam period rite now, so pple juz hav been stayin indoors studyin! Thus, a bit hard to make more frens or go out with existing ones. Apart from that, adelaide is a very nice place! I like where im stayin rite now, apart frm its costs! esp the cost of doin laundry! and the dryer sucks! so now i handwash my whites. The best thing abt my accom is that it has a good mix of international students. take my hse for example, im housing with 1 american 1 indian and 1 thai. all guys tho! yeah.. actually i requested for co-ed apartments but they ran out of space so the upgraded me for free to a townhouse with en suite! so now i get my own bathroom and i can walk ard in my boxers like i did in sinagpore! All my hsemates are great, nice peeps, we get along fine. Only prob is the american and his fellow american frens. They always hang out in my living room/kitchen and end up trashing the place. which is extremely inconsiderate! Dan is a nice guy but when he gets together with his fellow exhange students, all hell breaks loose. Its becoming a huge prob becuz, the mess they make really turns me off. So meals have been a prob since i can't or rather won't cook. plus the fridge is completely packed with stuff, so i can only buy dry goods. Hence, i've been eating out 95% of the time which is very taxing on the wallet haha. Thankfuly, their exhange last one sem so they'll be gone in like 20 days! Maybe den will i cook meals on a regular basis.
However, my life in bradford college isn't as ideal as i wished. On my first day, i was stunned to see 99.9% of students being yellow-skin asians!!! I had expected a better mix of international students.. sianz.. in the end.. majority frm mainland china or hk! arrggghhh.. all i hear is mandarin or cantonese! so i was glad i spotted a russian so spoked with him for the 1st day of orientation. He's only 16 la! but i heard there's one china girl who's 15!!! wat r these pple doin in uni at their age! ridiculus! It was only the 3rd and final day of orientation that the 5 s'poreans (includes one m'sian who studied in spore) finally serendipitously bunped into one another! haha.. u hav no idea how high-spirited i was that day... unfortunately, none of them r in my class! damn suay la.. stucked with the china and hk pple. haiz... nvr mind.. maybe dat'll aid my studying, less distracted in class.. so far my teachers have been good.. except my stats tutor! he cannot teach! hopefully my econs tutor will not be like him! will find out tmr... So far so wasted.. the gd teachers all teach the subjs i do not need help in.. oh wells...
ok gotta whip up dinner! ciao

2006-10-18T01:31:00.000+09:30

My last wkend in s'pore (for the near future at least) flew by real fast! but first, lets start with thurs. Met up with xiao hui, finally someplace else besides jp swensens! haha.. went to eat at maxwell food centre, my first time there believe it or not! She had kuey chap while i ate yu pian mi fen, which was pretty good. no wonder quite a few were eating dat as well. after dat we went to marina square, tried looking for pencil cases, but didn't like any we saw. Finally settled at some chill-out place xiaohui suggested where they have a live band playing mandarin songs. The place is pretty small, but i wud say its quite a nice chill out place, reasonable pricing as well. but its mandarin songs, so gotta go with the right crowd haha. friday was my most tiring day. i left my hse before lunch, went to pick up claire, den we headed to thai express at marina sq (again) for lunch. Incidentally we both love thai food haha. During our chit-chat, she asked wat presents i finally got for teresa. Turns out she wanted to read 'Night' as well and dat she was currently reading 'A million little pieces', which INCIDENTALLY i bought along with my two copies of 'night' (one for myself one for teresa) juz a few days prior at borders. hmmm.. but shouldn't read too much into such coincidences huh? hahaha. anyways we tried times bookstore at marina but they didn't sell the book, and she also couldn't get nice flowers for a fren.. juz wasn't her day she lamented. haha.. fri the 13th la i guess haha. haiz.. the date went well except for one crucial aspect. i disgraced myself by not taking a photo with her!!!! i mean i brought a camera for god's sake! all pre-planned! dun bother asking me y i didn't cease the chance, i've been asking myself as well haha.. worse thing was, the camera was in plane sight most of the time, i wonder wat she must have thought. sigh.. at times my stupidity gets the better of me! arrghh.. anyways.. this thurs will be my chance for redemption! hehehe.. anyways she had to head home to prepare food for a potluck so i sent her home ard 4. I had offered to help with the preps, but she said her mum wud mind.. it was a good try tho on my part haha. my nxt appt was 730pm so decided to head home first since i was driving. So at 730, i went to dine at fish&co's glasshouse and den desert at swensens with my ang 2 army mates. After dat i went to catch 'the departed' with my soccer buddies at cine. told u friday was real tiring.. got home only at 3am haha. it was a good movie, infact i wud rate it higher if not for the fact dat its the hollywood remake of infernal affairs.. So gotta deduct some pts since the plot ain't dat original. Its still a really gd movie tho, incoporated the classic moments frm infernal affiars while still retaining the distictive hollywood style. jack nicholson was fantastic! but the infernal affairs trilogy is still tops for me. anyways prior to the movie, i had real trouble gettin a parking lot. initally, i tried the small one juz opp cine. i wasn't waiting long till i spotted some guy driving a covertible abt to leave. so i switched by hazard to a right signal to show my intent while waiting for the bugger to slowly wind down his roof. Low and behold, this SUV comes speeding past over-takin 3 cars including myself to steal the lot! i was flabbergasted! i kept sounding my horn, boodly driver wudn't make eye contact while his gf juz kept giving me the 'pai say' look. wtf man. So wanted to scratch his car, but gettin a parkin lot was more impt so i left to try the one outside somerset mrt, which was futile as well.. in the end had to park at cine itself. I tried to see if the SUV was still ard up frm cine's windows but unfortunately it wasn't ard. basket. really pissed me off! Anyways, i went for dim sum buffet lunch with my ACMTL army frens the nxt day. was afraid i wudn't be able to wake uip.. considering fri was so tiring haha... thankfully i did, tho i did reach a little late hehehe.. i couldn't really whack the buffet cuz i ate alot on fri, so wasn't all dat hungry. Later we went to pay one of our frens a visit. I juz found out he has cancer, stage 4. haiz.. yet another.. he lost a lot of weight, but he's getting better.. able to walk more now. Chit-chatted till i had to leave for teresa's party. Not surprisngly i was the first, well excluding her aunts and her bf stephen. So i tried being of some help, but stephen pretty much had everything done oredi. i didn't noe anyone else at the party, so ended up hanging with her AC classmates, whom i've met maybe once or twice? So i guess i wasn;'t dat bored in the end. I had overheard them complain of headaches from sniffing, so i immediately asked," wat did u'll get? wat perfume??" hahaha.. ever since she made it known on her blog, i was worried she mite get same prezzies! Thankfully, they got the anna sui one, which i actually preferred but decided not to get cuz i was lazy to walk back to wisma.. hey i was shuttling to-and-fro deciding on anna sui or ferragamo ok? haha.. the impt thing is she got both the fragrances! As for sunday, i threw a small surprise b day party for ah peh. Tricked him into coming to settlers cafe under the pretence of a farewell for myself. Yeah so as a gang, except yc, we went to settlers cafe to chill and play board games.. actually we only played one game la, Cranium, which was really fun! we formed 3 teams of 2, and i must say.. my partnership with reuel does not only excel on the football pitch hahaha.. we share some Zi-Zi telepathy! not surprisingly, we came out winners heheheh.. i mean, the winning game says it all la. I was supposed to use the plastersine to mould and reuel wud hav to guess wat it was.. the hint was 'plant'. the timer starts, and i juz mould the stem, ready to break-off some bits to mould other parts when he shouts,' cactus'! its crazy la. Unfortunately, we couldn't stay long, i had to leave so did ah peh. so we cut the cake and left. could tell ah peh was pretty touched, which left me real gratified. He even said, my first cake in 3yrs haha. to think he didn't suspect a thing till the cake came out hahaha. Anyways, after dat went to jumbo at east coast to eat with my extended family. one aunt bought me a new bag, while another got me a t-shirt and my grandma gave me a $300 dollar ang pao! heheheh... Which i've splashed on a really nice leather jacket frm zara.. in the end considered lugi la, cuz initially, my mum said she wudn't mind buyin me a jacket but after the ang pao she changed her tune hahaha.. saying i dun need so much sing dollars now hahaha. oh wells, they're paying for my education, which i'll forever be indebted. Yesterday, met up with rachel. we aren't close but i made it a pt to meet her becuz i'll be missing her 21st, juz one day after i fly. So i thought we'll indulge in some nostalgia by returning to essential brews (she brought me there when we first met). Their food is surprisingly ok, a little pricy but not entirely a waste of money. We chatted for awhile, but i didn't want to take up too much oif her time. could tell she was tired and still had work to finish. And finally, met up with sharon today for dinner. ate at the wisma foodcourt. she intro-ed me this famous stall. i had the hokkien mee while she had the char kuey teow. Both were gd, the time spent waiting was definitely worth it! haha.. After dinner, we walked to borders so i could get yet another copy of 'night', all part of my redemption plan! hahaha. she kept probing abt claire, but i wud keep playing things down, which i'm tryin to do for the record! haha.. but she cannot fight la, once she asks i'll juz shoot back abt mr donald duck den she'll diam diam hahaha. ok its quite late oredi.. must start turnin in early! tmr i'll be having drinks (supposedly my treat haha) and supper with the soccer guys and finally buffet lunch with Xy, my redemption plan and dinner at hv with teresa on thurs! ciao!

Wise-ma? Atria

2006-10-13T01:32:00.000+09:30

I say NOT WISE AT ALL!!!!! forgot to inculde this in my previous entry.. stupid wisma atria closed their underground link to the mrt!!! now u hav to go up to the ground level and enter thru the main entrance at level 2!! its super duper irritating, especially when u want to cross over to scotts rd etc.. must go up and down, so leh chey! Im pretty sure this new format is to boost the human traffic along the corner units juz above the link, which were neglected cuz most peeps dun not take dat escalator up. but for dat few units, they've effectively inconvenienced everyone! we're all so acustomed to the old route.. arrgghh!

2006-10-12T02:58:00.000+09:30

My calves are aching!!! oh manz.. i've really been lazy'n on my arse way too much! wat to do.. doctor's orders haha. well, ok.. i did walk ard non-stop from 230 onwards in orchard.. and i didn't sit on the train to boon lay! so dats abt 4hrs w/o restin my legs? not dat bad la i guess.. haha

Went to boon lay to catch 'World trade centre'. its not too bad.. my eyes swelled up a couple of times but they wud cut to the nxt scene whenever i was juz abt to cross the treshold! haha.. anyways it was good to meet up with the gang again, too bad i forgot my camera.. super wasted.. i brought a bag today la.. hopefully we can meet this sun again, probably the last for the near future... haiz.. a little over a wk left... manz.. i'm like feelin empty these days.. numb.. like a part of me has oredi started to fade away.. i dun want to feel this way! i want BRENNAN to be at adelaide, not some forlorn shadow of myself who's left some of his spirit at home in s'pore! arrggh! i must regain my excitment i had a few months ago! my new chapter in life awaits! my path to a career in psychology!

Oh ya, i was in the shower and it occurred to me: i have 2 goals to achieve at adelaide 1. advance my education, carve a career in psychology and 2. find a gf. the thing is.. i couldn't decide which had higher priority! haha

Light a million candles

2006-10-11T02:42:00.000+09:30

The innocent victims of Internet child abuse cannot speak for themselves. But you can. With your help, we can eradicate this evil trade. We do not need your money. We need you to light a candle of support <http://www.lightamillioncandles.com>. We're aiming to light at least One Million Candles by December 31, 2006. This petition will be used to encourage governments, politicians, financial institutions, payment organisations, Internet service providers, technology companies and law enforcement agencies to eradicate the commercial viability of online child abuse.They have the power to work together. You have the power to get them to take action. Please light your candle at lightamillioncandles.com <http://www.lightamillioncandles.com> or send an email of support to light@lightamillioncandles.com. Together, we can destroy the commercial viability of Internet child abuse sites that are destroying the lives of innocent children.

W-HY

2006-10-02T02:58:00.000+09:30

i was juz asking myself WHY? when i noticed its last two letters, the irony...

2006-09-25T22:58:00.000+09:30

Oh ya forgot to mention this... ever since i uploaded the provocative pics on my friendster, i've been gettin numerous hits from guys! eeeww.. and finally one had the courage to ask me to add him! yucks! So in view of such unwanted attention, i have to take some counter-measures. But, i will not remove the pics simply becuz i feel the pics represent a part of my personality i'm truly proud of. Its all abt my spontaneity and whacky sense of humour! not some drag queen fetish or gay-stud attention grabbing ploys, ok? So i think its time to add a disclaimer in my profile.

I should have SCORED!

2006-09-25T21:38:00.000+09:30

Its been awhile... much has happened the last wks.. lots of fun activities! but i won't write abt them, kinda difficult for me to look at the computer screen rite now hahah... haiz... yesterday, while playin soccer, i injured my right eye pretty badly... I was through on goal with juz the keeper to beat, but my side-footer ricocheted off the keeper's shin and slammed right into my eye! It was so fast that i didn't even have time to shut my eyelids! i actually felt the ball impact my eye... it didn't hurt tho.. definitely not as painful as being hit in the nose or the balls! haha.. but i couldn't open my eye for a good 5 mins.. and when i finally could, all i saw was darkness.. I finally understood wat it meant to 'see stars' haha.. strangley only 2 questions bothered me at that time. 1. How the hell did the ball hit me so hard and fast? i only side-footed it man.. dats like juz a tap! baffled... 2. How my contact lens stayed intact and inplace? amazed. hahaha.. Anyways it took abt 10-15mins for me to finally be able to see.. Unfortunately, i still couldn't regain complete vision, there was still a little bit of a shadow/haziness around the lower portion of my field of vision. Similar to wat we wud expierence from a bright camera flash, juz dat mine never faded off. So i promptly headed home and got my dad to check my eye. He couldn't find any serious damage to my eye so we decided to juz let time take its course and see if the shadow disappears. Well.. i woke up this morning and still no improvement. So i went to see an eye specialist. From the inital tests he did, he said some of the muscles from the top of my eye were torn, so my pupil is sagging down a little lower den normal. And he warned me dat when it heals, there's a risk of scaring etc.. and it mite affect the drainage of the eye in future, causing an increase in eye pressure which will lead to glaucoma. So he advised me to go for regular check-ups in future, at least once a yr, for life baby! oh mans... After that, he asked the nurse to administer some drops to dilate my pupil so he could check my retina for any damage, juz to be safe. So i waited outside for a while before the second examination. Boy was i in for more bad news.. sigh.. haha.. He discovered some areas of bleeding in the eye.. there were quite a number man.. he showed me the pics/videos afterwards. There was also some swelling behind the retina.. which explains the 'shadows'.. So now with the new discoveries, coupled with my relatively high myopia, i now risk tearing/detaching my retina! which is serious shit! I'm now at risk of two problems dat can lead to blindness!!! dunno wat to say man... And cuz of all this, i hav to cancel my wakeboarding for tmr, badminton on thurs.. i can't even go to the gym! foiled my hopes of ever sticking to my 3x a wk gym regime! oh mans.. absolutely no physical activity were his orders.. and he said it could take up to weeks for me to regain full vision! total bummer! and if my condition worsens, i mite not be able to go australia! oddly, as devasting as it sounds, it didn't really hit me as bad news haha.. stayin in s'pore awhile longer wouldn't be all dat bad heheheh... some of u mite noe why.. haha.. but in all seriousness, such a reality wud be castatrophic on my tertiary plans. sigh.. so suay.. I'll be goin for my next review on wed. wish me all the best!

i really should have scored!!!

2006-09-01T16:54:00.000+09:30

Yesterday, i went down to comex at expo to purchase my skype phones. So happened my mum was heading to simei, so i hitched a ride. So we were in the car on our way when my mum starts recounting the several '5oth birthday' parties she's attended this yr. Have to admit, all the parties sounded really cool and happening la! So much thought and planning and creativity.. much more den the 21st parties i've been attending haha.. guess its the money issue la.. one party had invited hawkers whipping up their kampong delights in the bithday girl's backyard! with push-carts to boot! pretty sure dat set-up must hav cost a bit. Some had campfires, guests performed skits etc.. we're talking abt our mothers here! us twenty-somethings shud be ashamed haha
As much fun as the parties sounded, what moved me was the spirtit behind all of it. Would my frens and i be as blessed as my mother and her frens? Would our friendship last our lifetime? or wud we lose touch and drift apart? Our generation lives in a world with far greater opportunities, one with abundance of choice. Present day is all abt change. But would change affect our friendship? Would taking dat new job mean forgetting ur old colleagues? Would leaving the country mean leaving ur frens behind? its a question of how much effort we're willing to make, and im not sure for myself. I've already expierenced in my short 20yrs the replacement of old frens with new ones when i change schs or move towards the next stage of life. It sucks. So im making effort, now, to rekindle those past relations. I shouldn't be replacing frens, i shud be accummulating! haha. I'm a firm believer that your best frens r those u've known the longest. Im not saying ur nusery buddies are all ure best frens, im saying the ones who've spent the most part in ur life r ur best frens. I've had really close frens in pri sch, sec sch and jc but nvr one from pri sch till now. I've been replacing u see. But they've all played major parts in shaping who i am today, and they deserve better! Its friends for life not that stage in life. So, i swear, today, that i'll always keep in touch with these jems and i hope they'll do the same for me.

On another note, i attended smu's freshmen bash at MOS last night. As usual, there was a pageant. Weren't too impressed with the contestants. always seems to be the case huh? haha anyways my interest wasn't the pageant, it was meeting someone. I'll call her 'Ah hoon'. So who's ah hoon? Has brennan been smittened by yet another girl? well... the answer is NO. Ah hoon is the person my buddy, let's call him Mr. DHL, been head over heels over since he went smu. From what i've heard frm mr. dhl and from what i've seen from yesterday, its no wonder. But why was yesterday a disppointment? becuz mr. dhl is so so so so so HUM CHEE!!! it was bordering pathetic! Maybe the nite started on the wrong foot. let me explain. It was juz the 2 of us meeting for dinner as the rest were running late, so we settled for the nearby Macs. Low and behold, we bump into them: ah hoon, bryan if im not wrong (who's his fiercest competitor) and another female fren from the OG. Ok, bryan's supposed to be some former PTI in his NSF days. i.e. Hunky. But personally i think he's so-so and im not being bias. ok maybe i am haha. anyways, we dun need to guess who was sitting next to ah hoon rite? So at our table, mr dhl tells me dat he had casually asked ah hoon earlier if she wud like to join us for dinner, and here she is sitting nxt to mr. former pti. haha.. bummer.. but hey, who wud choose dining with strangers (well, turned out to be only me) over dining with 2 other OG frens? Of course if she had seen how i look like, her choice wud hav been different hahahah. anyways dat was dat. We bumped into them again in MOS while watching the pageant. So while the other guys were swarming her infront, mr dhl was 5/6 feet behind with me doin nothing but appear hapless and gutted. As i edged him to at least strike up a conversation with her, he keeps telling me he can't leave me behind for his OG, claiming how we go way back while he juz met his OG... pls.. i wasn't even alone la.. i had kim our korean fren and his korean fren he introduced, Claire (her korean name's hae young)!!! Unsurprisingly, we lost them after the pageant was over while getting drinks. In a bid to lift his spirits up, we dragged him to the dance floor.. to no avail tho.. he juz stood there looking all sad and pathetic. even my crazy antics on the dance floor could only bring a brief smile on his face. I even took him for a walk ard the dance floor in a bid to find ah hoon. Juz when we gave up and resumed dancing with claire and kim i saw his eyes shift. he must hav spotted her! so i quickly pushed him forward, edging him on. But once i mentioned dat i was goin to leave him alone with ah hoon, he chickens out and tries to lead me the wrong way but i swore i saw a glimspe of her and changed his direction. But alas, we could not find her.. maybe i had saw wrongly. haiz.. Anyways, mr dhl didn't stay much longer after dat and was the 1st to bade us farewell. sigh.. i mean.. i made more progress with claire den he has with ah hoon la.. dats juz sad. i must think of something to change his self-confidence.. he can't let her slip away!!!

2006-08-26T01:26:00.000+09:30

Today's cake's 21st birthday, so we all went down to sentosa and threw her a surprise party! we were almost late la! haha.. all ended up frantically preparing the decor of our table with balloons and party paraphernalia. and for some unknown reason, the balloons kept bursting which pissed off the restaurant's manager.. he said we were frightening the kids and barred us from playing with any of the party paraphernalia cuz we didn't inform him we were holding a b day party. wat an ass.. pretty sure andrew did. anyways we were almost done, so we couldn't care less (infact many kids came up to us for balloons later on. huh!) So we managed to change into our old sec sch uniforms (yeah.. uniform party baby! my idea ok haha) in the nick of time and we all hid behind some low stone wall.. thot my super tight 60s styled sch pants was goin to split into 2 squating down like dat la! haha our efforts were futile tho.. we ended up the ones being surprised la.. andrew and cake came from the other direction.. haiz.. communication breakdown btw andrew and me la.. anyways, i had the honour of bringin cake and andrew their uniforms. took the liberty of getting matching outfits hehehe.. highlight of the party! cake got jealous dat he looked better in the hcjc skirt den she did hahaha.. same size mind you. but of course, his skirt wasn't fully zipped up or his shirt fully buttoned.. still i was surprised dat it fitted quite well. infact, i had worn them myself the nite before. not becuz im a twisted sicko haha but to make sure he could wear them.. we are abt the same build.. i didn't realise how foreign we men are to women's clothing till last nite! damn funny.. first i tried the largest mgs uniform i could dig out.. wore the blouse first, tight but still 'wearable' den i attempted to pulled over the pinafore.. it was sooo bloody tight i almost got trapped la.. almost like a straight-jacket haha.. and it was pretty hot with the dual-layer and all.. or maybe its was due to the struggle tryin to wear them. Xy's has since clarifed dat its the pinafore first den the blouse haha. see.. foreign. Up next was the hcjc uniform. 1st i wore the skirt with the zip in the front haha.. hey instinct ok? i immediately moved the zip to my ass and assumed i got it right. it was only a significant time later while 'admiring' myself when i realised an unusually large and ugly pleat running across the crotch area. hahah.. realised it was a pocket.. bingo! the zip's supposed to be on the left! haiz.. so complicated.. hahaha.. very enlightening experience. hah!

2006-08-24T03:19:00.000+09:30

Juz attended the ntu hall 2 pageant bash at butter factory. It was a really small event. expected la.. only a hall pageant.. ironically, most of the supporters aren't in hall 2 haha.. basically juz OG frens of the contestants. The event was kinda sucky, haha.. it was made worse when everybody left to club at other clubs once the event's programme was done (fyi it was abt 20mins). says alot of the appeal of butter factory huh? haha anyways, i still hav to applaud the contestants.. it ain't easy standing infront of a crowd, answering questions and tryin to impress etc. So, i was there to show my support for Andrew and he had to make an ass of himself!! hahaha.. ok, everyone screwed up their Q&A, nervousness i guess but Andrew and his female counterpart (look i've oredi forgotten her name! haha) went one step further. Each couple gets 15secs to make an impression, perform something.. 2 couples did a dance routine while another juz mixed a drink (what's up with dat??) but my dear andrew had to do a musical number.. They parodied some love song, the lyrics were quite funny, i read them before the event started. but boy oh boy.. his partner cannot sing!!! she's as tone-deaf as me! and mr andrew had to forget the lyrics!!! they were holding the lyrics in their hands but couldn't get it right.. hahaha.. oh mans.. immediately confronted him after the event haha.. y sing when she can't hold a tune i exclaimed!?! he explained dat he was running out of ideas as she kept rejecting his suggestions.. she didn't object to singing tho.. guess she thinks she can sing huh? heh. Quite a waste, cuz looking at the other guys, competition ain't dat tough. haha. luckily, the votes cast by us only amt to 30%.. hopefully he'll perform better at the real deal, some dinner and dance at goodwood park hotel.

2006-08-23T02:08:00.000+09:30

weird weird weird... its a tues and yet i surprisingly bumped into more pple i've ever bumped into in town! i think.. First off was, jeremy khoo my barker classmate. I haven't seen this guy in person for several yrs! we chat online from time to time, but haven't found the time to meet up. So i had juz alighted from the mrt and was on the escalator up to orchard road when i see him coming down the other way, shouted out to him and he told me to wait. So he came up and we chit-chatted for awhile. The second was juz mins later on my way to paragon. Bumped into hansel, also my barker fren, who incidently was in the choir with jeremy! learnt dat he was leaving for the US today to study liberal arts! Finally, bumped into andrew and cake at cine! not a real biggie tho, since i met up with them last fri and will be seeing them tmr as well as the coming fri! hahaha..

anyways, i went to town to meet up with my cuzzie, Bev. She juz returned from the UK, so brought her out for a simple dinner and a movie. We caught the lake house which is a movie that totally makes no sense! hahaha.. Bev was equally if not more dumbfounded by the way the story was told.. but like she said,' lucky only 7 dollars' hahah. I feel the movie would hav been better and more touching if he had really died dat fateful valentines. But i guess dats too sad for hollywood execs. Oh wells.. looking forward to seeing andrew catwalk! hahah

ORD Lo!!!

2006-08-22T00:01:00.000+09:30

Yay.. went back to camp today to collect my IC and my barang barang from my bunk. which means i ord-ed a day earlier hehehehe... may only be 24hrs but its always satisfying to milk the saf! haha.. it wasn't all smooth sailing tho. i returned to find my cupboard locked!!! i nvr lock my cupboard, immediately knew someone new has taken over my bed. Unfazed, i simply headed down to the office to find out who the new guy was. I obtained his hp no and rang him up. Low and behold, he left camp for a medical appt!!!! wtf! he is an absolute idiot! i wud hav appreciated if he told me dat he'll be locking my stuff in my cupboard so i wud know better to check if he's ard before making the long journey down to camp! he could have left my stuff in the small wooden cupboard which has no lock! they say hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. well i beg to differ. ORDing men like me, turn into hungry beasts when the fateful day of collection comes, so expect all hell to break loose when we're deprived! hell hath no fury like an IC-less ORD personnel, i say!

anyways, waiting for him to return was out of the question and im pretty sure he wudn't want to travel all the way back either. So he gave me permission to break his lock. His first smart move. hell hath no fury like an IC-less ORD personnel

Unfortunately, my unit doesn't hav a industrial metal cutter which wud hav made breakin the lock ABC. I started off with a fire extinguisher. tv makes it look real easy haha.. the locks r always rusty and can be broken with a couple of hits. I swung away for a good ten mins! ok, i didn't quick freeze the metal to make it brittle. Afterall, i was in a camp, and unauthorised use of an extinguisher is a chargeable offence. hey im a good boy. ok, so the extinguisher didn't work so i headed down to look for tools. Managed to get hold of a spanner, a screwdriver and a hammer. These r pretty able tools to break a lock. but his bloody lock is so thick and strong! (the beauty of english huh? a mere changed of a letter, say a 'L' to a 'C' , can change the whole meaning of a single line! hahaha) anyways, back to the story. Desperate times call for desperate measures. it was obvious the lock will nvr be broken with brute force. So i changed my focus to the latch. After a few swings from my trusty entinguisher, managed to weaken the metal significantly. Afterwhich, i applied my knowledge on what i believe is called, metal fatigue? haha juz tryin to sound intellectual, when infact we've all experienced it before with breaking paperclips into two by bending back and forth repeatedly. So there i was, twisting the ledge back and forth with my spanner for an eternity (ok la 3 mins?) when i finally saw a crack! the rest was academic. juz shaped the metal so i could squeeze the lock through. in tv land it takes 1 min.. in reality? 45. think i've been watching too much Alias. haha

oh ya, gettin back my ic has only reminded me of one thing. My photo looks like cock! the darn hair! my hair is oredi bad enuf.. they had to screw it up with bad printing.. sigh.. and i look so young haha.. i look ang moh too..hmmm...

anyways meeting up with bev and shirleen tmr! time for more gossip gossip gossip!!! see ya

2006-08-20T02:35:00.000+09:30

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That's army for u!

2006-08-16T00:32:00.000+09:30

Today, i went for my ord ffi (juz a check-up to certify u left the army fit so u can't blame saf later haha). Got quite pissed over it... i forgot how inefficient and retarded the organisation can get at times.. I wasn't sure wat time my dental was, so played safe and arrived in camp ard 9.. I registered and was told they only see ord personnel after 1030. fine by me, so i scooted off to find some of my army buddies still serving (heheheh) and returned at 1030. my dental check-up was quick, abt 2 mins? afterwhichi collected some cert. and headed over to medical department. to my astonishment, the medic tells me they only see ord personnel after 230!!!! wtf man! dats freaking 4hrs later la.. how spastic can they get... first and foremost.. my 1030am appt was allocated.. i didn't choose dat time. infact the date of my check-up was also decided for me. So who in the right mind wud set the two departments time slot for ord ffi so different, knowing that both wud be done one after the other. so infruriating! thankfully i'm not studying or working yet... wud have been more pissed if they were wasting precious time.

anyways, it was time for a contigency plan. I initially planned to head down to queensway shopping centre after the check-up to do some shoe shopping, but with the stupid arrangement decided to do it during the 4hrs. fortunately, managed to even get a lunch date with my cousin, kaiwen. i guess the lure of swedish meatballs at ikea is juz too strong! haha they were indeed delicious! been yrs since i ate them.. didn't manage to find any shoes of my liking tho.. this is becoming a serious prob! i really need a new pair.. i'm over using my only pair now! not gd.. not gd at all! i did get other stuff tho.. haha.. 2 tees and a pair of street soccer shoes. my very first pair infact! abt time i got the soccer shoes... been creating holes in my BATAs and track shoes all my life!

after sending kaiwen home, i reached the medical centre ard 3pm. registered and proceeded to wait for my queue no to be called. nearly 45 mins later, the medic calls me. sounding very apologetic, he said,' i'm sorry. ur form was supposed to be processed. but it was juz left on a table and the doc has to leave soon. could u come back another day?' another day?!?! i freaking blew my top la! first it was the 4hr wait, now u're asking me to come back another day? wtf. no way josé! so i got my way and did the usual height/weight, blood pressure (which was higher due to certain circumstances haha) , urine and eyesight tests before seeing the doc. I enter his room and he only asks me one single question. 'Any tatoos or scars?' the answer was no, and i left. wth man. if it was this simple and fast, y ask me to come another day? can't imagine how pissed i'll be if i had returned another day for a 10min check-up!

2006-08-10T01:14:00.000+09:30

Huff! its been a while since i blogged (a very familiar line indeed) oh wells, its been a very 'happening' last 10 days! meeting up wif peeps, tennis, soccer and of course, some shopping! its been activity after activity till today... which is kinda ironic.. since today is National day, everyone's free, people shud be asking me out! haha.. so ya.. today kinda sucked.. if only i could have wat i had the past 10 days till the day i fly off.. idealistic dreams

Caught tokyo drift yesterday with xiaohui.. we were deciding btw dat and my super ex-gf.. we shud have watched the latter.. tokyo drift is a b-grade movie.. pls be warned! the storyline was bad, very bad actually.. one of those ah beng movies i cannot appreciate.

to cut or not to cut

that is the question

2006-08-02T01:23:00.000+09:30

Today i discovered only the second strand of white hair i've ever had! more or less from the same spot.. my first was earlier in the yr.. its really strange cuz i nvr ever sprout white hair.. haha.. aging? furthermore, i'm hardly leading a stressful life rite now! suppression maybe?

Anyways, i had a great day today! finally met up with my chidhood fren, Giles. We haven't seen each other since sec sch.. dats like freaking 3yrs w/o communication! I've known Giles since nursery would you believe it? He's my oldest friend. I tot i saw the last of him when we left kindergarden.. but low and behold.. i see him at ACJS! infact, quite a no. of my kindergarden frens went to js.. always found dat odd.. anyways.. Giles orso went to barker... infact he was my tennis doubles partner in the sch team. But we were often in different classes and when he went to poly we totally loss communication.. but can't be too hard on ourselves, we're weren't really in the cell phone and internet' age.. all i had was his home no. which i got during pri sch haha.. but thanks to friendster, he contacted me last yr and we xchanged hp nos. its taken me a yr to finally set up a meeting, quite guilty abt dat... but oh wells.. juz glad i finally did.

But before i continue, juz like to add dat 'Giles' is such a unique name rite? nvr heard of anyone else with dat name. think its the most unique one i've ever heard.. more unique den mine.. which is really funny and special in a way to me.. dat both of us have unique names haha.. and for those who r wondering how its pronounced, its: ja-isles. something like dat la..

ok, back to the main story. So, we met up for some tennis at my house. Couldn't believe i was nervous la! almost as nervous as a first date! didn't help dat he was late! haha.. he looked and sounded different.. his small eyes seemed smaller! haha and his voice is alot deeper den i had remembered. but other den dat, he was the same old Giles i've known. needless to say, he beat me in tennis.. he's always been the more consistent one while i was the one more prone to making errors haha.. plus he's fitter den me now, being in army and all haha. tho the tennis was fun, finally able to spar with someone ard my standards, the catching up was wat i really yearned for. I was surprised to find out his elder sis studied psych and is currently doin some research at NIE! It was heartwarming to noe dat tho we've not spoken for yrs, there wasn't any akwardness at either end. I'm thankful for that. Hopefully it won't be too long till we meet again.

Flick of a switch

2006-07-26T20:59:00.000+09:30

Its funny how life can change in a blink of an eye. How your mood can behave like a yo-yo. How we're all caught in an intricate and delicate emotional web, constantly trying to keep it all together with every tug of a heartstring. Its tough.

Couch Potato Woes

2006-07-24T23:49:00.000+09:30

Ever since i started clearing leave, i've noticed a trend... On the very very very occasional days i step out of the house to meet up with frens and all, i'll always end up having aching legs when i go to bed! u know.. the lactic acid build up kind of aches.. a real testament to how little movement i make when i'm couped up at home. what a reality check! i noe i shouldn't be surprised since all i do is watch tv/dvds or be at my com, but to get aches from walking the streets of orchard rd brings it to a whole new level! never in my life have i developed CPS (couch potato syndrome).

But what puzzles me is, y do i get these aches from walking when i can play soccer without feeling a thing afterwards? plus soccer happens less frequently.. haha.. weird..

anyways my sis juz came back from bangkok.. bought me a bunch of stuff.. couple of tees and shorts and some boxers.. its good when ur elder sis starts earning her own cash! hehehe.. she's never done anything like dat before.. more to come i hope! hahaha

2006-07-13T23:12:00.000+09:30

Went to watch 'thank you for smoking' with my couz shirleen today. Its quite a good movie, pretty funny. But the most interesting part wasn't the movie but wat happened prior to it. hahaha.. To start off with, i was expecting to be late for the 1210pm show having missed my train while the nxt wud be 7 mins later! So it was 12 by the time i hit commonwealth, so i decided to alight and take a cab.. since its actually town is really near from there. But guess wat? i took the cab to the wrong cinema unknowingly! Simply hilarious and completely embarassing! For starters, i was the one sourced out the various movie timings and all the day before. Somehow my memory had failed me and i remembered that we decided to watch at cine when in truth it was ps. To rub salt into the wound, i had actually called shirleen when i alighted, asking her which level the cinema was, 5 or 7. She had also mentioned that she was a barang barang at the time. Sounding a little confused and kan jiong, well i was already 5mins late, she tells me level 7. So i enter the cine lift and i realise there's no level 7 only 6. Didn't think much of it and juz took to the 6th. So i was out there waiting for abt 5 mins or so and im wondering wats taking her so long? she said she was on the 5th only one floor down. Right den, the notion of me being in the wrong theatre slowly creeps in and i quickly call her. Immediately i ask," We're watching at cine rite? not ps rite?" den she frantically answers," Yes. No. PS, we're watching at PS rite?" I was like 'SHIT!!!!' hahaha.. i took a cab to the wrong place.. almost like a waste of money. anyways i rushed over, all sweaty from running in the hot sun and almost 20mins late. Felt so guilty. thankfully i think we didn't miss much, i mean we entered during the talkshow scene with 'cancer-boy'. Those who have also caught the film, pls fill me in on wat i've missed. thanks.

So after the movie, we went to cafe cartel for lunch. didn't noe they changed their service policy.. maybe someone complained dat they shouldn't get us to self-order if we're paying service charge? anyways lunch was good. Shirleen scooted off to give tuition while i stayed in town to try to get more shopping done! hehehe.. Not very fruitful tho.. couldn't find a nice pair of shoes and im still holding out on dat espirit bag.. Only a g-star t-shirt and a pair of armani xchange berms caught my eye. but both were way above budget at 115 (excl. 10% discount) and 169 nett respectively. i like g-star alot, but its really too pricey.. i'll nvr pay 100 plus for a t-shirt.. even on discount. haha.. same for the berms.. although it was exactly wat i was looking for, striped and all, 169 is insane! So i went home empty-handed. think i'll check out queensway for my shoes and bags one day.

Yan Can Cook So Can YOU!

2006-07-11T23:56:00.000+09:30

Yay! Cooked lunch for the family today. yeah i noe, was suppose to start on mon but i forgot abt the world cup final. A man needs his sleep. haha.. speaking of the world cup, wat a way to bow out zidane! (pun intended) I wasn't surprised so much by his act of insanity but rather by the forcefulness of his bowing (hehehe) he really charged like a raging bull, sans the hair - i mean - horns. haha.. i guess he figured he might as well hit with greater force since it wouldn't change the fact that he'll still be red-carded. plus he needn't worry abt gettin additional bans on future matches since he's retired. well ok, he mite have to wait awhile for his testimonial haha.. ok i have seriously digressed. Ok. so wat did i cook today?

1. Onion Omelette
2. Stir-fried baby kailan and sliced carrots with garlic and osyter sauce
3. buttered prawns in wheat cereal complete with curry leaves

The onion omelette was straight-forward and easy. hey, how difficult can it get? but i'll admit, my attempt at flipping it over was a total flop haha. The veges was simple as well.. apart from the garlic! dicing garlic is an art i say. a difficult one to master i might add. instead of doin the usual 'smash and dice' popularised by Mr Yan, my maid taught me another technique she learnt from a fren. I think its juz as effective, but i was damn worried i was going to cut myself so naturally i was as slow as a tortoise. pun intended. no worries tho, i'll improve with practice. Anyways, initially i thought the last dish would be a challenge, but it was just as simple as the earlier two. It just took more preparation time. And i tell u, it is darn difficult to rid the smell from your fingers. hahaha... anyways, during the course of cooking the meal, my maid imparted many valuable lessons. I think the best lesson today was to used not only seperate cutting boards but knives as well. One for poultry, meat, fish, garlic, onions etc and one for fruits and vegetables. Really common sense but it never crossed my mind till she mentioned it. Incidentally, after lunch, i was watching Oprah and she realised why her kitchen has two cutting boards. haha. Yeah she was doin a show on cooking and stuff. weird coincidence.

ok, think dats all for today. ciao

Superman Returns!

2006-07-05T01:55:00.000+09:30

Inspired by the new movie, i've heroically come to save my blog after a 3 month hiatus! hehehe...

I've no idea y my blogging has been so infrequent the past 18mnths... maybe life's become all too mundane for me or maybe all the craze and attention on blogging or rather 'celebrity bloggers' has stifled me. ( i make it a pt to aviod the norm and escape the fads. that's me.) Watever the reason (probably both and a string of others), my blog's been revived as i turn the page to a new chapter in my life!

Now, that, i'm clearing leave awaiting my ORD date, i've got lots of free time. (only goin to work half-a-day each wk of july and none for the month of aug hehehe) Initially, i'd planned to find a job (which im not ruling out) since i only leave mid oct but i've got one major plan that's gonna wreck most job prospects: that is to pick up cooking! Considering the yrs i'm goin to spend abroad, its in my best interest to know how to whip up those home-cooked meals. As such, i've decided to understudy my maid, my family better brace themselves haha. Unfortunately i haven't been dat conscientious, only managing one meal the past wk. hash browns and battered fish, not exactly local fare i was hoping to cook. and my maid invited me into the kitchen a bit too late! having done the marinating herself, she just left the frying to me. she didn't fully understand that i'll be doin the cooking and she'll just watch haha.. well, it'll be different next time, and i promise it'll be more den once a wk, everyday in fact!

Along with my cooking training, i have two other 'free time busters'. Gym and studying! Yes, i've been procrastinating ever since i wore green, infact i still am... abt a wk behind schedule, thanks to my nasty blister. but i swear, i'll clock at least an hr a day. not happy with my cup size hahaha. High protein Low carb, here i come!

As for the studying, yes studying, i noe its a shocker. i nvr study until exams. but hey look where it got me? plus, army really gives you motivation to hit the books. 3yrs without intellectual stimulation, that's a serious handicap. not forgetting, you're also so pissed off at the gross amt of time wasted that u'll be so eager to make up for loss time. So, anyways, i've under-achieved all my life, never setting any real goals. But that's gonna change, i've decided to pursue my passion and carve a career in psychology. Doctorates are always demanding, but im bracing myself. So i figured it'll aid my preps alot if i knew wat topics are goin to be covered in the first sem. the website was too vague so i emailed an adminstrator last nite and she replied immediately today. but her response was really disappointing and somewhat rehearsed. pretty obvious she couldn't bother to help. explains the quick response. nevertheless, my revision shall commence. hopefully, much of it would be relevant.

ok goin to bed now.. still got world cup action to catch later on! still a bit bitter from brazil's shameful exit, but its not goin to dampen my world cup spirits! ciao.

2006-03-21T20:50:00.000+10:30

Flying off to taiwan early tmr morning! not sure when i'll be back... either last wk of april or 1st wk of may, yeah.. pretty excited.. not many share this view but i love goin overseas with the army. not dat its fun and enjoyable, probably far from it! but i feel its a chance of a lifetime, not many get to expierence overseas trainging.. so I stand by my policy to volunteer for every overseas stint available. to be frank, i'm really lucky.. not many pple get the opportunity to go both australia and taiwan during their national service.. if only i could have gone new zealand and india had time permitted.. wud have made a grandslam! oh wells.. one can't be too greedy. ok, gtg for dinner. ciao
p.s. hoepfully there won't be war with china or a bird flu outbreak! haha

2006-02-20T23:40:00.000+10:30

i'm sure we've all read/heard abt the nyp sex video scandal involving a 17yr old girl... i'm just trying yo understand what Straits Times is trying to achieve by publishing this story. i feel the poor girl is being victimised... k, to all those who see this girl as a cheap slut or 'loose' or deserving of such humiliation since she agreed to be taped, i ask u'll to hold on to ur horses. Yes, she shud have known of the risk of the video being leaked. yes, she was dumb to store it in her hp. yes, she shudn't be engaging in such acts at this young age. But, give her a break, she's 17! at such a age, teenagers are barely grasping the concept of consequence. adolescent is the period of time, when we learn, albeit the harsh way, the repercussions of our actions; the 'shud haves' and the 'shudn't haves'. So here we have a 17yr old girl making, arguably, the worse decision of her life. One that will definitely change her life and the lives of her family and frens. And what does ST do? they publish the story, knowing that if the story was true they'll be ruining a young girl's future. seriously, y publish? cuz its a story that'll definitely get reader's interested? pls... leave that to the tabloids... its simply irresponsible.. talk abt consequence and repercussions. It didn't help that they published really detailed information like her first name, the course she's studying in, her cca etc.. info dat could hav been left out.. furthermore, according to reports, the video was stolen by a jealous 'fren' out to tarnish the girls reputation. ok, even if it weren't true.. y would ST wanna be a potential facilitator for slander and smear campaigns? instead of containing the situation by opting not to publish, ST have blown it up. How is this girl goin to recover from the shame? hey, she's no paris hilton. i doubt she enjoys the limelight. Thank you ST, for making her road to recovery alot more tough. kudos. yes, go ahead and punish her further. pls, condemn her life... we mite as well abolish juvenile courts etc.. kids these days don't deserve a second chance. rite ST?

2006-02-16T21:50:00.000+10:30

wow, 2 cases of gun-lated crimes in the past wk or so... basket, singapore gettin dangerous huh? haha.. think there's an arms dealer in town! hehehe.. but seriously, guns are unheard of here in this sheltered island.. the police shud be pretty kan chiong now huh? hehehe..

2006-02-11T00:56:00.000+10:30

wah, alot of good movies i wanna catch man... most notably syrianna, the constant gardener and fearless! only prob now is finding kakis! hahah... been falling out early everyday since my return to ang2. think i had better start planning more activities on week nights.. don't waste the extra time i have now heheheh..*hint hint to all my frens reading* time to give my social life a boost! all part of my 7mth CCP (civilian conversion program) plans wahahaha...

2006-02-09T13:28:00.000+10:30

not sure if my eyes are playing tricks on me, but it seems the cough that's been plaguing me has toned-up my abs! hahaha

Caught memoirs yesterday with kaiwen, my fellow coughing cuzzie haha.. thankfully we weren't the only ones coughing during the movie haha.. the movie wasn't too bad, but i thought i read that gong li was in the movie, didn't see her leh... haha well.. not that i watched to see her, or any of the other ladies.. now i'm inspired! maybe i should go charm more 9 yr old girls now eh? wait 10yrs for her to blossom while still appearing before her to keep the memory of her first love alive, then... hahahaha hehehehe! great plan man... hmmm 31 and 19, still conceivable la hahaha

2006-02-07T23:32:00.000+10:30

Yesterday, i went down to orchard with a couple of my camp buddies to shop for v day gifts.. actually only one of them was gettin gifts.. we dropped by tiffany & co. we were like fish out of water in there... completely out of place, mainly due to our shabby dressing hahaha.. i believe its my first time inside, and i hav to say i wasn't too impressed with their designs.. especially those displayed on the first floor. the second floor mainly showcased the diamonds, so evidently i was more impressed. but also unaffordable. haha. in the end, all the affordable stuff looked like crap so my fren didn't get anything from there.

At taka, i spotted this really really ultra cute porcupine stuff toy! Super endearing and great to touch, haha.. in its arms was a heart with the words 'love you'... kinda spoiled it for me in a way... so sad hor.. no one to give it to, or rather no one who'll buy it for me! haha.. so in a moment of madness i impulsively bought the critter for myself hahaha.. kinda pathetic rite? sigh.. oh wells.. my fren bought it too. lucky for him, he's got someone to give it to... haiz..

anyways looking forward to tmr and the day after... goin to catch memoirs of a geisha, finally! p.s. wendy, i didn't steal ur last kaki. haha. goin to catch another movie on thurs as well, meetin up with ben and derek.. gotta bid farewell to ben, before he flies of to aussie land!

010206

2006-02-02T01:37:00.000+10:30

010206... hmmm... my last day at ACMTL, Sungei Gedong camp. wow, the day i've been dreaming of, has finally arrived. kinda feels like 'ord' hahaha.. prelude i guess hehehe... will return to ANG 2, Kranji camp on mon, after i clear my 'offs'.

I'll miss ACMTL.. Yes, i did have a tough time over there but i also made lots of good frens who made my year long stay there bearable, even enjoyable at times. So i must pay tribute to the likes of Yeo, Ronald, Jackie, Kailun, Poon, Wei Liang, Linus, Lam, KS, Chris, Hippo, Charles, Kelvin, Bernard, James, Ryan, Ah Guan, Han wei, Jeremy, TF, Kenny, Koo, Raymond and Wo Rajoo for all his crude jokes which never failed to crack me up. hahaha. Sigh.. If not for bastards like shorty koh and DYFM, ACMTL isn't that bad a workplace. I'm lucky to leave, especially before LRI. To my frens, Hang on! focus on ORD! haha.

On hindsight, i'm thankful for the chance to work at ACMTL. I've gained valuable work experience and learned a few new skills, and of course it gave me the opportunity to meet many more pple. Really blessed that my attchment was only for a yr.. i feel its juz right. ample time to gain experience while short enough to retain my sanity! imagining another 7 mnths in this hell hole really sends shivers down my spine! but now, i can return to ANG 2 and enjoy a more relaxed workin environment, ORD mood lor! heheheh....

Memoirs of a GaySarg

2006-01-19T02:15:00.000+10:30

Was feeling really jaded today... but some good news perked me up! apparently my parent unit ANG 2 sent an email requesting my return, with effect on 1st Feb! Its a dream come true! when i heard the news, i was running ard the office like a mad man, i tell u... hahaha... ok, shall not be overly excited.. must wait for it to be official!

on to other news... i'll be goin overseas with the army again! this time Taiwan hehehe... won't be as long as Australia tho.. juz a couple of weeks, think i'll leave in april or so... juz nice la.. come back, can switch to ORD mood! wahahaha!

Initially i planned to blog a lot longer... but now, im tired as well as over the moon! so my mind's a blank rite now... so nitez!

2006-01-08T00:11:00.000+10:30

Finally... the week is over... its been a pretty busy return to army for me.. all thanks to LRI (logistics readiness inspection) preps and the return of wallaby vehicles/stores clashing! My bloddy FM (fleet manager) had to appt me Store IC (temporary) juz for LRI. Not like wallaby stuff isn't goin to keep me real busy... plus im not store trained! hey im a transport supervisor.. the supply sup better come asap! Luckily, the ship only arrived today, so i had the past few days to concentrate on LRI... most sickening thing is, our LRI is on the 16th to the 24th... y 16th!?!?! its the freakin mon after wendy's b day la... my FSM oredi told us dat we'll be doin OT over the 14th/15th wkends.. mite even burn hari raya.. for LRI preps.. 14th is wendy's party la.. 21st somemore.. hopefully we won't work thru the nite, den i can rush down to her place... sianz.. so busy! oredi did OT today man.. spent the whole day at pasir panjang port, overseeing the discharge of vehicles from the ship to the port deck... reached home ard 8pm... haiz...

k, enough bitching abt work... i think i'm definitely developing an infatuation with her... we've only met once, but it was enough... she really impressed me, almost to a pt of intimidation.. hahaha.. not many rattle my self-confidence, so i guess she's special.. hey, i oredi had a soft-spot for her even before we met.. i mean.. she shud hav pissed me off for gd after dat nite but juz couldn't help myself... its only infatuation tho... gotta get to noe her better first, before goin full throttle! hahahaha.. anyways hope she recovers asap!

2006

2006-01-01T23:30:00.000+10:30

its been ages since i blogged... there were a coupled of times when i tot of, but changed my mind when i reached the com... oh wells.. So, yet another new yr has begun.. time really flies... kinda sadistic that i spent my first day of '06 stuck in camp doin duty, huh? hahaha.. hopefully its not a sign of things to come this yr! Doin duty on a weekend, esp holidays is always a good chance for me to do some reflection, some thinking. seriously, cuz there's nothing else to do! haha.. but some how it seems dat i can nvr ever do so... this morning i tried.. but ended up fantasizing abt romance etc... really GAY ah?!?! wtf rite? y can't i be fantasizing abt HOT WILD SEX like most other guys? hahahha.. snapped myself out of it... tired of kidding myself... Brennan Ong, no pt thinking abt it! at least wait until u hav a leading lady to be in ur fantasy first lah! hahaha... sometimes i feel i get too caught up in the whole 'love' thing... bein single for 2yrs isn't dat long rite? y the withdrawal symptoms man? haha.. think its the all cuz of too much spare time! so i guess i have to be thankful dat i'll be back in army this wk! haha

hmmm.. i'm not one who does new yr resolutions. but heck. let's see wat goals or changes i wanna make. hmmm... for one i better start gettin fit! i hav to frequent the gym more often this yr... my health is at risk! i am supposed to be at the prime of my life, rite? think i hav to curb my drinking as well.. not dat i drink alot... but i hav to admit, since coming back frm australia, i have drunk alot more alcohol den i usually do.. and its costing me financially as well as affecting my fitness... lastly, i think i've neglected my guy frens last yr.. i wanna really bond with my male frens again.. i guess its partly cuz most guys aren't as expressive, and dun share any personal thoughts etc which is unlike me.. so kinda hard for me to bond when its only one way. but i believe i can work something out.

2006, a transitional year for me... All ready for wat's in store!

2005-12-21T06:50:00.000+10:30

Its 4 plus in the morning... can't seem to get a good sleep... not sure y.. maybe i'm not used to the bed the got for the office.. think i preferred the sofa hahah.. or maybe the office is too bright, thanks to the fish tank... or maybe its something else... hmmm my sleep has been really irregular since i went back to army, still takin time to adjust.. oh wells.. but hey! no worries man... won't go back to work till 1st jan 06! hehehe.. dunno y my boss so nice to me... he's a sly man.. its sudden acts of kindness like these dat cuz me to be more suspicious.. something's fishy.. oh wells, i could do with the extra time off now.. its the season to be jolly man! haha... at most suffer in 06 lor.. this xmas and new yr better be worth it! heheheh... sianz.. can't wait for it to be 6 plus.. den i can start tying up the loose ends of my duty and hand over to the next guy properly and head home for a good bath and sleep!

barely 24hrs left to plan.. no time at all! hmmmzz

Ex Wallaby 05

2005-10-03T16:27:00.000+09:30

Will leave Singapore for brisbane tonight! yeah.. goin wif the SAF for 2 mnths... will be back on the 26th of nov... hence, i won't be bloggin for a while... haha not dat i have been bloggin regularly or anything... well... i plan to keep a daily diary of my expierence there... so hopefully there'll be much to blog abt when i come back... but no promises tho haha... sigh.. not a gd start to my trip tho... down with the flu... juz great huh? hopefully i'll get all better once i reach rockhampton. okies... dats abt it.. back to packing now... always hav the feeling dat i forgot something haha

2005-09-16T21:29:00.000+09:30

Celebrated Xiaohui's birthday on thurs nite. i'd always wanted to check out the Stadium Waterfront so i suggested we go there. boy was i sorely disappointed! the place is dead man... sucks big time. ok, so we did go on a week night. but still... its sooooo small! needless to say, we opted to hav dinner at suntec instead. So as we headed for the car, i see a bloody parking attendent! Sian... juz when i tot to myself," heng i nvr put parkin coupon... if not it'll be such a waste...." damn it lah! 30 bucks haha... haiz... dats wat u get when u're lazy.. shud hav listened to xiaohui and walked back to the car to put the coupons... wat the hell is he doin at a deserted carpark at 9pm on a weekday!!!! practically summoned all the cars there... must hav been real shiok, ya? xiaohui was pretty high as well, kept laughing and rubbing it in... very funny to see ur friend become 30 bucks poorer hor? hahaha... on hindsight, was really dumb of me lah... i dun pay for the coupons leh... waste orso nvr mind hehehehe... wats dat compared to 30 dollars! hahaha.. anyways, ate crystal jade kitchen at suntec. haha barely made the last order, no wonder everyone else was walking in the opp direction as us hahahaha... sigh, dats the problem wif Singapore... where's the night life man? finished dinner ard 10 plus and were clueless once again on wat to do, where to go next haha after much stoning, xiaohui mentioned mt faber. adding dat she always wanted to celebrate her birthday there. my immediate reaction was, y nvr say earlier! haha.. good thing i orso want to go up there and see, see having nvr been there before too. driving ard mt faber juz reminds me of Inital D haha. After some brief exploring (both of us too hum chee lah.. so dark... plus i was too keen on voyeurism haha.. nearly did tho haha), we sat down at Altivo Bar (only found out its name upin seeing the reciept haha) anyways, its the so called 'hotspot' of mt faber. some (tikos in particular) might disagree tho wahahaha... but in truth, there ain't much choice up there... the view ain't dat great cuz there's nothing scenic to see but there aren't many places with the same concept. not a lot of hills in Singapore ma hahaha... So, we juz sat down and chatted our time away... sharing abt our families and our pri sch days! which brought the most laughter, mainly from xiaohui laughing at my very unforgettable sports day in pri 4. i won't elaborate on y its was soo unforgettable haha. we left ard 2 am, she was gettin worried i'll be too sleepy to drive haha.. plus i had to wake up pretty early the next day. Finally reached home ard 3 am.

Was really surprised dat i woke up at 9am today. an hr earlier den my alarm! was expecting to be dead tired having worked my ass off the whole wk.. oh wells... So how did i spend my leave? juz went back to my parent unit, ANG 2, for its 'birthday' celebration. nothing grand, juz took the chance to meet up wif my old mates and remind them dat i'm suffering at gedong! haha. life is unfair, sobs... i work my ass off the whole wk, opting on my own accord to return to ANG 2 during my leave and yet i have to return to work my ass off tmr and sunday! while the other tpt sup attached, gets off to attend the celebration (when he noes nobody frm ang 2, having been attached out since the day he was posted in) and gets to fall out early ard 2pm when he's the slackest amongst all the sgts at ACMTL. dats the trouble wif the army, nvr pays to be professional and efficient and useful when u're a NSF. still seeing if my efforts will be awarded one day or will the exploitation continue....

2005-09-04T20:56:00.000+09:30

another week has flown by... BUSY BUSY BUSY! its funny how i encourage myself to keep goin despite the long hrs at work, using the wkend as comfort, knowing i can finally rest and unwind when in truth, i never ever feel that way when it does come. oh wells...

played soccer yesterday afternoon. wasn't too happy with my performance, too rusty, but i can forgive myself haha. wat worries me more is my failing fitness... i couldn't even last a half! two wks ago i played court soccer and nearly died as well... now, my legs and abs are all aching. yes, abs... didn't realise i use my abs when playing till today haha. i've said it before and im saying it again, ARMY has made me unhealthy! sigh... need to start running and working out in the gym again. i must be able to run 2.4 under 9:25 again! but i wonder how... hate exercising at night... i dunno why... juz not my style hahah... prefer the afternoon. but with army, looks like im forced to do it at night. even so, its difficult. i get home ard 7 plus 8... hmmm... i could push my dinner back to abt 9 plus. dat'll at least give me an hr to exercise. hopefully my stomach can tahan till 9 plus hahaha

anyways, after soccer, went to meet up with a few campmates for dinner and a movie. watched the new jack neo film 'San Ke Hao Ren' aka One more chance. Was pretty good, as most jack neo films are... but was kinda disappointed by the ending.. too abrupt (much like the War of the worlds) and a tad lame. i also felt dat this movie was more government-friendly den the past few. maybe its got something to do with the award they gave him during NDP last yr, haha.

The trip down to orchard left me envious as well... seeing some many young couples juz made me jealous! dunno y i've been so 'despo' lately hahaha... juz yearning to shower someone with all the love and affection i can muster! just haven't found the right person yet. boy is she goin to be lucky! wahahaha! but i sincerely believe i'll love her deeply.

2005-08-27T22:25:00.000+09:30

haiz.. bored as hell now man... but orso too tired to go out, or at least jio pple out haha. might hav considered if someone asked me out, but as usual, nobody did *sobs* hahahaha
brought up my 'potential for hair-loss' during dinner with my family today haha. my dad's certain i hav high testosterone, with my acitve sebum glands and body hair. i dun deny it, i'm VERY MANLY wat! hahahah tho some might disagree *ahem* he's considering starting me on medication to reduce my testosterone levels. the med's meant to curb balding but i think for my case its more for the achne heheh. thing is, none of his frens or himself hav used the med for achne treatment haha. i'm worried if there are any side effects manz... dun wanna grow tits or wat hahaha. according to him ard 1% will expierence low sex drive. i could do wif dat, i'm an ANIMAL man! wahahaha but really not too sure abt hormone treatment, its considerably new, long term side effects aren't dat well studied yet. juz look at the poor body builders who experimented wif HGH (human growth hormone) developing tits and all. i'm serious. haha.
Life in army is headed down hill yet again. sigh... its not so much the fact dat im busy wif the Ex Wallaby preps, having to do OT/report to camp early etc or the increased resposibilites placed on my shoulders recently. Its the morale of the camp, very depressing. sigh, especially for my dear fren Ronald. He's one of the few pple i trust in the MT line, a great fren, and its hurts to see him in this situation now. he's undoubtly been the most suay NSF spec, keep gettin aimed by dat BASTARD. and i dun see how it can be fair? Ronald works hard, takes all the shit wif little complaint, yet this is how they treat him? hey, we all make mistakes. most sickening thing is, his mistakes are trivial in my eyes. like me, he's an attached personnel. juz pisses me off, when we attached personnel, slave our asses off for another unit trying our best to be as professional and responsible as we can. showing good work ethic and at least contribute to the MT line. but this is how they repay us? this is how they show good faith? fuck u. its such 'hospitality' dat makes us feel at home. no wonder we all wanna return to our parent units. futhermore, the timing of it all is juz damn bad la... he's visibly shaken and drained. i can only hope and pray for justice.

2005-08-24T23:13:00.000+09:30

shagged shagged shagged!!! did OT once again.. its becoming NT (normal time) haha.. today's OT jia lat man... went to wash 5 tons!!! finished soaking wet and with dirt all over... yucks... best thing is didn't have a change of clothes. heng, i drove to camp today, if not dunno how i can book out. (need to be in uniform to book out by foot) reached home ard 845pm... dats wif driving, imagine wat time i wud be back had i taken public transport! sigh.. same thing tmr, gotta wake up at 5am. this time no car tho... sucks... haiz.. tmr was supposed to be a rest day... initially it was only today, fri and sat.. yes, SAT! but now, i need to be early tmr as well, making it 4 consecutive days! plus OT somemore... no wonder i hav such bad pimple outbreak now haha...
feelin alert now, but gotta slp now, if not tmr i'll juz die. ciao.

2005-08-23T22:19:00.000+09:30

sigh... my initial plan was to sleep at 9pm today, cuz tmr i need to wake up at 5am. gotta go camp early. but i only got home at 830pm and i've yet to take my dinner! if fact didn't have lunch too, juz brunch. sad man.. everyday do OT... stupid Wallaby preparations... sigh... guess i'll juz relax a while longer before hitting the sheets.

2005-08-20T17:42:00.000+09:30

How to make a Brennan

Ingredients:

3 parts intelligence

3 parts brilliance

3 parts empathy

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little emotion if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

2005-08-16T23:46:00.000+09:30

hmmm... i've decided to be more candid abt my personal life and my opinions on my blog from now onwards. In the past, i was very wary of wat i should and should not write, always guarded, always worried i mite offend/disappoint/embarass someone, afraid of the zero control over my audience and the judgements dat may follow. But i've come to realise that i shudn't censor wat i want to say. its my blog. not saying i'm goin to reveal all my secrets, give up my privacy. juz goin to stay true to the purpose of this blog, a medium for me to vent my frustrations, release my anger, make confessions, find solace in writing. i can't be the selfless Mr. Perfect all the time.

P.s. changed my blog song. So in love with this song now... i can put in on repeat and nvr get sick of it, well at least for now. hahaha no idea wat the title means tho, 'the blower's daughter'??? *raises eyebrow*

2005-08-14T11:05:00.000+09:30

bloggin from camp again... but this time, via a SAF laptop wahahaha... a first, so cool! hehehe... anyways juz wanna write abt last nite's, no wrong, this morning's dream. haha, i dreamt i was dating Steph Sun! a prettier version of course, heheheh... i wud analyse that my sub-conscious choose Steph Sun probably cuz i heard her song last before fallin asleep and the whole dating senario, was simply the released of suppressed emotions. ok, enough of that nerdy shit hahahaha... the dream was very vivid, plus i made an effort to remember heheh. it felt real, it had history... i felt emotionally connected. it was like watching a movie. my dream had great cinematography! haha.. a rarity. usually its blurred, incoherent or simply illogical.

anyways, here's how it went.

The history:
It seems Steph and I once dated a long time ago. Before or after she became famous? i dun noe.. my dream didn't specify hahaha. So, somehow, our paths crossed and we got in touched again. (charlotte)

Fallin in love again:
it started harmlessly enough. juz two old flames catching up on old times. Soon we re-discover each other, nostaglia sets in (wendy)and i'm remindered of how we share the same interests, have similar character traits (teresa)

Making my move:
After a day of great fun together packed with great conversations, lots of laughter etc So we were walking back to her place, we were intimate, i had my arms around her. blissful. i looked into her eyes and it struck me. She's the one for me, I love her(plus she's a millionare, big plus hahaha). And i noe she feels the same, i can see it in her eyes. I kiss her passionately on the lips. i pull away, breathless. gazing into her eyes yet again, marvelling at her beauty. I bring my face close to her again, our noses caress and i give her a gentle peck on her lips before we resume our walk home. (absolute fantasy haha)

The infidelity:
I come down to her place for a surprise. Surprise her i did. two of her girl frens receive me at the door and usher me to the living room. They tell me Steph is having a shower and scurry off to her room to get her. but in truth, Steph actually spent the nite with some boy toy and her frens quickly alerted her! Hearing much comotion from her room, i curiously open the door to see a boy in his boxers looking for a place to hide! But before i could rush in to kick his ass, her two frens rush out of the room and began to come on to me. Running their hands all over my body, stripping off their clothes as well as mine hahaha... (rui chan) I resisted but my efforts were slowly wailing, then i wake up! hahaha...

Yeah i noe, ending sucks... weird too... maybe its a message, my dream girl isn't goin to be faithful! hahahah i'm such a loser... oh wells, its juz a dream.

2005-08-14T00:21:00.000+09:30

My trip down to my usual hair salon has left me a little worried! My hairstylist handed to me a brochure after i made payment. didn't think anything of it, juz tot it was a promo for male hair products. but when i got home and properly read it, realised it was targeting men with hair thinning problems! My initial thoughts were 'doesn't concern me. i've got such thick hair!' but after reading through it, i realised i have many of the warning signs listed. such as: pimples pn face, back and extremities. excessive oily scalp. not sure if i can fall under the excessive body hair category, but i'm quite hairy hahah... and i'm not sure if i have excessive hair loss (over 50 per day), how to keep count? haha the only thing i lack is excessively thin-lookig areas throught the scalp or any visible signs of balding! hahaha... how man? am i goin to bald soon? i find it very hard to believe, i mean no receding hair line etc... but im definitely goin to be more aware from now on. not goin to scuff at the idea dat i'll bald anymore.

2005-08-10T23:30:00.000+09:30

Hooray! I passed my driving test! yippie! hahhaha.. So proud of myself, wahahaha.. tho i only juz passed... not forgetting dat i oredi hav expierence frm the army hehehe... extra happy cuz it came cheap! abt $750+ only... 11 lessons! hehehe...
but the stupid bbdc had to dampen my spirits by pushin my patience to the limit! my test took me 1/2 an hr while it took me 2Hrs to settle the admin stuff and close my acc... wah lau... make me wait so long juz to collect a mere $3.75! too much la... give priority to newbie students... i mean.. its so much faster to close an acc den to start one, yet we hav to wait! basket! In the end, made me late for my appt... so paisey, our first meetin den make her wait sooo long... den in the end nvr buy the insurance from her... so sorry Ada...
Sianz.. back to work tmr again! sigh...

2005-08-09T22:10:00.000+09:30

Dead tired rite now... almost feel breathless hahaha... damn it la.. gotta start working out again... a mere two month lay off has oredi resulted in me feelin so drained after juz one afternoon of futsal! Feel like goin to bed this moment... but i won't. simply too early.. think i'll juz laze in front of the tv later hahaha

Tmr i'll be taking my driving test! hahaha.. but strangely i'm not nervous at all at the moment... maybe i'll be shit scared tmr afternoon hehehe... maybe its cuz i've been driving in the army... not so 'newbie'. can still remember how nervous i was before my military driving test, felt so unprepared and inexpierenced. but den again, im not sayin i feel super confident for tmr's test. My driving ain't dat gd! haha.. but really hope i pass... dun wanna waste anymore money liao... gettin broke oredi hahah.. it'll be best if i get a female tester, den can work my charms on her wahahaha!

2005-07-31T23:52:00.000+09:30

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.

You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.

You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.

You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

2005-07-31T23:46:00.000+09:30

You are Agonistic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care.
For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine.
You rather focus on what you can control - your own life.
And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

2005-07-30T11:58:00.000+09:30

Sometimes i juz wonder how pple can be so selfish. so evil at heart. how he can show no compassion, have no empathy. sigh... luckily, the friendships i've forged over there gets me through.

2005-07-25T01:19:00.000+09:30

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

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2005-07-25T01:17:00.000+09:30

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

2005-06-12T14:53:00.000+09:30

Your top value

Social
Synopsis
Values human relationships above all. Motivated to help people be the best they can be. Giving of time, resources, talent and energy.
Your score = 82

Constant kindness can accomplish much. As the sun makes ice melt, kindness causes misunderstanding, mistrust, and hostility to evaporate. - Albert Schweitzer

You seem to be motivated by social values. This means that you value being helpful, kind and agreeable. You think it important to try to find the good in everyone, and you have faith that if you dig deep enough, you will find it. You wish to eliminate or at least reduce hate and conflict in the world. You give of yourself, whether on a small scale- for instance, by spending time with a friend in need, or on a global scale, by volunteering for a human-rights organization. In helping others overcome obstacles, you hope to assist them in becoming the best they can be. You are a giving, compassionate individual. You are most likely liberal politically, and you tend to become passionately angry at signs of social injustice. It is imperative to you that you have contact with people both during your free time and at work. You really enjoy and benefit from being with other people, and as a result you seek out activities where this is possible. You put family and friends over work and other responsibilities, and, consequently, you are a trusted friend and cherished family member. In times of crisis and change, you are both a source of comfort for your family and friends, and able to be comforted by them as well.

Individuals with social values tend to be good communicators. They relate well to others, and best use these skills in the helping professions, such as doctors, teachers, nurses, social workers, counselors, and other careers with extensive contact with the community. Not all individuals with social values hold these types of positions, but if not, their values probably surface in other aspects of their lives, at home or in the community.

Individuals with social values are sometimes so focused on helping people that they have trouble with organizational tasks or finding ways to cut expenses in today's budget- conscious world. They may have conflicts with other individuals who wish to perform those unpleasant tasks- even those that are just trying to be realistic. In addition, they may take on too much and become weighed down or burned out by the injustices rampant in the world. They tend to carry the weight of the world on their shoulders, and may become overwhelmed or depressed if their perceive themselves to be powerless against the world's injustices. Their faith in people may backfire if they trust the wrong person before they really know them.

2005-06-12T13:02:00.000+09:30

Your EQ is

147
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2005-06-12T12:58:00.000+09:30

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

2005-06-12T12:54:00.000+09:30

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

2005-06-12T12:49:00.000+09:30

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2005-06-12T12:43:00.000+09:30

Your Expression Number is 6

You have an outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance.
You are helpful and inclined to comfort those in need.
You have many artistic and creative talents, but you only use them to better others.

You are loving, friendly, and appreciative of others.
You have a depth of understanding that produces much kindness and generosity.
Openness and honesty are apparent in your approach to all relationships.

Sometimes, you can be too demanding of yourself.
At times, you tend to sacrifice yourself for the welfare of others.
At other times, you have trouble distinguishing between helping and interfering.

What's Your Expression Number?

2005-06-12T12:42:00.000+09:30

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck is something you won't attain - you expect bad luck.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's the True You?

2005-05-29T01:22:00.000+09:30

Your #1 Love Type: ENFJ

The Giver

In love, you give your all and feel guilty when relationships fail.
For you, sex is not seperate from love and caring.

Overall, you are humorous, giving, and motivational.
However, you tend to be over-protective and critical of your partner.

Best matches: INFP or ISFP

What's Your Love Type?

2005-05-23T20:35:00.000+09:30

Your Birthdate: December 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene.

The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher.

You are very responsible and capable.

This is an attractive and an attracting influence.

You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it.

You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research.

You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes.

This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup.

You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-05-23T20:34:00.000+09:30

Your #1 Match: INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's Your Personality Type?

Wat the Hell man...

2005-05-08T08:28:00.000+09:30

Was awaken by a phone call at 450am this morning... my 3 drivers involved in the live firing exercise had yet to report to SOA (sch of armour). When it comes to live firing, time is very precious, so the SOA personnel were understandably kan cheong. Screwed up thing is, i could not get a single one of the 3 via hp, so i was forced to drive down to their bunks and check out if they had overslept. But, when i reached no drivers were in their bunks. So i quickly headed back to the mt line, hoping dat they had oredi left for SOA. Back at the mt line, an SOA personnel informed me dat the last L/R driver had still yet to report! This bloody driver is goin to get it from me, from my mto, and th SOA officers! His hp is not in service, he's not at his bunk... the asshole AWOL... How the hell am i goin to find a replacement driver at such short notice, on a sun in the wee hrs of the morning!?!?! I immediately called my officer for further instruction, but he was at a lost too.. Luckily, another driver had a diff detail ard 930am and he had oredi booked in last nite, so i suggested we use him and worry abt replacing his detail later. Live firing is our first priority hahah. So i proceeded to call the driver, but his hp was switched off (later i learned that he no longer has a hp, cancelled or lost or something la) So yet another stumbling block for me! Fortunately, i noe where's his bunk so i drove down to his bunk and woke him up. After which, i drove him to SOA, only to find dat they had oredi left for the field! Yet another twist! haha... So i returned to the mt line and gave the SOA officer a call. He asked my driver to proceed to the traingin area by himself, but both the driver and myself weren't sure how to get dere... so we had to rush off again to the cook house and try to catch the 5 ton driver collecting the breakfast for the training ex. He will be able to lead my driver to the training area. Luckily, we were able to catch the 5 ton driver, phew... hahaha.. wat a start to my sunday! Haha kinda fun to speed ard in camp! hehehe..

Bored Bored Bored!

2005-05-07T18:56:00.000+09:30

sigh.. duty sucks! so very BORING! haha arrgghhh... only exciting happened during lunch, when i cheong-ed out wif a fellow driver in a GP car to da bao lunch, sooo not a chargable offence dere hahaha... wat to do, lunch is impt! can't expect me to eat the crap the army provides on weekends rite? hopefully i wasn't spotted by anyone, or complained by any bo liao civilians... can't afford such a disaster, esp wif the kind of boss i have... i've signed enuf xtras for my liking oredi hahaha. sigh... burned 'the green mile' into a disk specially to watch it here in camp... the bloody movie is 3hrs long, great way to kill time... unfortunately, this crappy saf com doesn't hav divx codec, and i had probs installin it after i dl the codec.. sucks man.. shud hav brought vcds instead! luks like i'll hav to settle for the books i brought for entertainment... more pple pls come online on msn! for my sake! hahaha

Wah! Me? a Player? kinda feel insulted... sigh... Is this accurate?

2005-05-05T21:44:00.000+09:30

You are a XPYT--Expressive Practical Physical Taker. This makes you a Player.

You are clever, sexy and sexually oriented. You know what you want and how to get it. You command attention in a room of strangers, as your charisma, your personality and your spending habits are all oriented toward making an impression on your target sex. You pay attention to details.

You reel people in easily, but have a harder time keeping them around since you are just as demanding in a long term relationship as you are on a night out. Combine your demanding nature with the fact that you're hard to keep up with and easily bored, and you get a recipe for problems with fidelity.

In a conflict, you're brutal -- you know how to unleash one cutting remark that turns a normal fight into a brawl or a breakup. Your general attitude is you just don't have time for fighting -- if you feel like your current partner doesn't understand you, you know you can find another one.

You may see yourself in a parent and dislike his/her choices, so you want to avoid them for yourself. You feel confined by social pressures, both to pair up and stay paired. It will (and should) take you years to settle (and for you, it may really feel like you're settling).

Please use a condom.

Of the 224071 people who have taken this quiz, 8.1 % are this type.

2005-04-17T22:24:00.001+09:30

Enneagram Test Results

Type 1	Perfectionism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Type 2	Helpfulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Type 3	Image Awareness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Type 4	Sensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Type 5	Detachment	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
Type 6	Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Type 7	Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Type 8	Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Type 9	Calmness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%

Your main type is 9
Your variant is social

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2005-04-17T22:24:00.000+09:30

Main type	Variant

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2005-04-17T22:08:00.000+09:30

ESFP - "Entertainer". Radiates attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever. Fun to be with. Very generous. 8.5% of the total population.

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Wrinkle Wrinkle Little Sarg

2005-04-15T16:19:00.000+09:30

Do i really look older den my age? A lot of pple, both older and younger den me, have been surprised to find out dat i'm only 20 this yr! Many believe me to be ard 22-23 yrs old, some have even said i look 25! hmmm... not sure wat to think of it... an insult or a compliment? hahaha...

I agree wif sis, not very accurate... hahaha

2005-04-13T22:28:00.000+09:30

Global Personality Test Results

Stability (60%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness (36%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion (59%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

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2005-04-10T21:50:00.000+09:30

I'm feelin really tired and lifeless rite now... the mid-day soccer match i played juz now has left me super exhausted... the thought of having to report back to camp sickens me, real bummer to my spirits... feel like takin mc hahaha sigh... how am i goin to survive the wk ahead when i'm sooo shagged to start wif??? arrgghh!!! i hope worklife isn't as tiring as army, but got a bad feelin dat its pretty much the same or WORSE! haiz... k, i hav to get the sorry sight of me draggin my ass back to camp out of my head now! haha.. let me recount my enjoyable sat nite, dat shud lift my morale haha... I met up wif Teresa in suntec for dinner at nydc. been awhile since we last met up... but, we didn't gossip as much as we used too... probably cuz our love lives lack excitement, in a way hahaha... gossip we didn't, but boy did we eat! haha.. place two desert freaks at the dinner table and u'll get a whole lot of gluttony! Teresa had baked pasta and a jazzie brownie for desert while i had spagetti and a grandma goes nuts mudpie for desert. the mudpie wasn't as sweet as i wud hav liked, especially if u compare it to the brownie... it was a bit too hard for my liking as well... nevertheless, didn't regret tryin it tho i doubt i'll ever hav a craving for it in the future. (k, dat was my hopeless attempt to describe my dinner the way Teresa does so well...hahaha) Anyways, after dinner, we juz killed time wandering around before finally settling at a cafe in citylink mall to chat till her dad came. Actually, i wanted to take a walk along the riverside stretching from the esplanade to one fullerton. really like the atmosphere there, wif the sea breeze and all... but, i didn't suggest doin so cuz she was tired, plus she'll be at the esplanade today. Not a biggie, anyways, cuz i still enjoyed myself thoroughly. Feels good to be able to laugh and smile again, its been awhile...

2005-04-10T21:45:00.000+09:30

What A Psycho!!!

2005-04-09T00:17:00.000+09:30

Logged into Friendster juz now and i received one psychotic msg... sigh... today's been full of awful surprises.. hahaha... oh wells... here's what was written:

'good day sir, you're look so cool and smart in picture, please sir .... as a cool, smart, superior and powerful young guy, you need to have a low life shoe slave to serve your shoes, sneakers, boots and socks .... please sir i begging you give me a chance to be under the control of your powerful feet .... i can make you feel superior and powerful .... i lick your shoes very clean and i smell sniff dry your full sweaty socks .... you can use my face and my crotch as your foot rest and i massage your superior sweaty socked toes with my nose and my crotch .... please master sir i begging you send me your email for add you in my club and give me a chance to serve your superior feet and footwear .... thank you master sir'

wat a sicko! not the first i've encountered on friendster tho... everyone pls watch out for 'PowerShoeClub'

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=12802725

2005-04-07T21:49:00.000+09:30

Juz one more day...

Hang in there!!!

2005-03-28T21:49:00.000+09:30

Tired... So very very tired... sigh... havin a severe back ache now! think i've been standin for too long today... actually, dun mind a busy schedule and all... time passes faster when u're caught up wif work. plus, bein busy helps curb my wild imagination! think only i will understand what i mean, hahaha... planting too much thoughts in one's head is unhealthy! hahaha... ok, as i was sayin... dun mind bein busy, juz dun like feelin shagged after work! hahaha... thankfully, most of the time i dun reach dat state, juz hope it stays dat way!

Turn left Turn right

2005-03-25T14:45:00.000+10:30

Caught the movie again on tv today... really like it, if only the ending weren't as dramatic as an earthquake bringin down the wall and all... i can bring myself to believe the whole plot except dat last scene! pretty sure i'll love the movie much much more had the ending been more realistic hahaha... plus, Gigi leung is juz so gorgeous! she may be a bit too skinny for my liking, but juz her face and smile is enuf to melt my heart! hahaha...

Somehow i always happen to watch this movie on tv during a certain period in my life... and it nvr fails to give me hope... hope dat destiny wud bring us together... haha, i've been guilty of some of the same 'acts of insanity' dat the characters did in the movie... waiting at certain places, doin certain things etc *chuckles* (k dats a bit gay haha) so i can sort of relate to the movie, maybe dats y i like it so much. wonder if u'll feel the same? I first watched the movie, shortly after i decided to give up... though it rejuvenated my hope, it also gave me faith... dat faith has enabled me to be patient... months passed, and our paths crossed yet again, like an act of destiny... a surge of emotion, and in a blink of an eye, i'm back feelin the way i did the 1st time. now, juz when i've loss hope and chosen to forget, the movie plays again. Are we meant to be?

3rd Sgt Brennan Ong: Chief Instructor!!! Arrgghhh...

2005-03-25T01:45:00.000+10:30

Shagged man... Super shagged hahaha... wah... taking charge of 30 plus men fresh from bmt is stressful!!! haha... plus today was the armour centralised mt line (ACMTL) opening ceremony, so super busy wif its preparations! sigh... wat a busy wk for me... while most will be enjoyin gd friday and the long wkend... i'll be back in camp on sat for duty! sad sia... book out 8am sun den later must book in again before 2300 hrs... sums up the wk for me... sobs... hahaha.. to make things worse, i joined a soccer league along wif my soccer team buddies, and the 1st league games HAS to be on SAT!!!! ARRGGGHHH!!! damn it la! hahaha... oh wells... juz hope i'll enjoy myself tmr, tho haven't planned anything yet, sigh... Oei! tsk tsk... get the hint? hahaha...

Yet another...

2005-03-20T22:51:00.000+10:30

Had a really disturbing dream... sadly i can't recall the entire dream, how i wish i did... cuz now i'll nvr noe why i dreamt of plotting the murder of my mother wif my dad... Yes, my dad and i tryin to murder my mum... well, it wasn't exactly my mum la... it was my mum in the form of sharon stone... u noe how weird dreams can be, ya? as to why sharon stone? my best guess is dat she best protrayed my mum in the dream, a femme fatale... a role she shot to fame with in basic instinct. So in summary, my dad and i were tryin to kill a femme fatale who so happens to be my mum! Its so disturbing... i mean, i love my mum so dearly... i can safely say, we hav a very healthy relationship... makes me wonder y i wud dream such a thing!

Haiz... wats wif all my dreams of late??? wonder wats in store tonite... hmmmm... hahaha...

2005-03-17T22:26:00.000+10:30

Dreamt dat i died last nite... It was such a vivid dream... so real... for a moment i really tot i was dead! I believe i actually physically cried during the dream, i did cry in the dream dats for sure... when my soul hugged my younger sis... I even managed to see my very own dead body, pretty traumatic... didn't get to see the face tho, guess i consciously censored it out haha... Scariest part was, before i died, the 'dream me' dreamt dat i wud die... So maybe its a premonition, and tmr i wud nvr wake up, hahaha... ok ok, not very funny la huh? not gd to curse oneself ya? haha anyways, its really sad if u leave without gettin a chance to say ur goodbyes, really really hope dat when i do pass, i'll hav a chance to bid all my loved ones goodbye.