Oh ya forgot to mention this... ever since i uploaded the provocative pics on my friendster, i've been gettin numerous hits from guys! eeeww.. and finally one had the courage to ask me to add him! yucks! So in view of such unwanted attention, i have to take some counter-measures. But, i will not remove the pics simply becuz i feel the pics represent a part of my personality i'm truly proud of. Its all abt my spontaneity and whacky sense of humour! not some drag queen fetish or gay-stud attention grabbing ploys, ok? So i think its time to add a disclaimer in my profile.

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Its been awhile... much has happened the last wks.. lots of fun activities! but i won't write abt them, kinda difficult for me to look at the computer screen rite now hahah... haiz... yesterday, while playin soccer, i injured my right eye pretty badly... I was through on goal with juz the keeper to beat, but my side-footer ricocheted off the keeper's shin and slammed right into my eye! It was so fast that i didn't even have time to shut my eyelids! i actually felt the ball impact my eye... it didn't hurt tho.. definitely not as painful as being hit in the nose or the balls! haha.. but i couldn't open my eye for a good 5 mins.. and when i finally could, all i saw was darkness.. I finally understood wat it meant to 'see stars' haha.. strangley only 2 questions bothered me at that time. 1. How the hell did the ball hit me so hard and fast? i only side-footed it man.. dats like juz a tap! baffled... 2. How my contact lens stayed intact and inplace? amazed. hahaha.. Anyways it took abt 10-15mins for me to finally be able to see.. Unfortunately, i still couldn't regain complete vision, there was still a little bit of a shadow/haziness around the lower portion of my field of vision. Similar to wat we wud expierence from a bright camera flash, juz dat mine never faded off. So i promptly headed home and got my dad to check my eye. He couldn't find any serious damage to my eye so we decided to juz let time take its course and see if the shadow disappears. Well.. i woke up this morning and still no improvement. So i went to see an eye specialist. From the inital tests he did, he said some of the muscles from the top of my eye were torn, so my pupil is sagging down a little lower den normal. And he warned me dat when it heals, there's a risk of scaring etc.. and it mite affect the drainage of the eye in future, causing an increase in eye pressure which will lead to glaucoma. So he advised me to go for regular check-ups in future, at least once a yr, for life baby! oh mans... After that, he asked the nurse to administer some drops to dilate my pupil so he could check my retina for any damage, juz to be safe. So i waited outside for a while before the second examination. Boy was i in for more bad news.. sigh.. haha.. He discovered some areas of bleeding in the eye.. there were quite a number man.. he showed me the pics/videos afterwards. There was also some swelling behind the retina.. which explains the 'shadows'.. So now with the new discoveries, coupled with my relatively high myopia, i now risk tearing/detaching my retina! which is serious shit! I'm now at risk of two problems dat can lead to blindness!!! dunno wat to say man... And cuz of all this, i hav to cancel my wakeboarding for tmr, badminton on thurs.. i can't even go to the gym! foiled my hopes of ever sticking to my 3x a wk gym regime! oh mans.. absolutely no physical activity were his orders.. and he said it could take up to weeks for me to regain full vision! total bummer! and if my condition worsens, i mite not be able to go australia! oddly, as devasting as it sounds, it didn't really hit me as bad news haha.. stayin in s'pore awhile longer wouldn't be all dat bad heheheh... some of u mite noe why.. haha.. but in all seriousness, such a reality wud be castatrophic on my tertiary plans. sigh.. so suay.. I'll be goin for my next review on wed. wish me all the best!

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Yesterday, i went down to comex at expo to purchase my skype phones. So happened my mum was heading to simei, so i hitched a ride. So we were in the car on our way when my mum starts recounting the several '5oth birthday' parties she's attended this yr. Have to admit, all the parties sounded really cool and happening la! So much thought and planning and creativity.. much more den the 21st parties i've been attending haha.. guess its the money issue la.. one party had invited hawkers whipping up their kampong delights in the bithday girl's backyard! with push-carts to boot! pretty sure dat set-up must hav cost a bit. Some had campfires, guests performed skits etc.. we're talking abt our mothers here! us twenty-somethings shud be ashamed haha
As much fun as the parties sounded, what moved me was the spirtit behind all of it. Would my frens and i be as blessed as my mother and her frens? Would our friendship last our lifetime? or wud we lose touch and drift apart? Our generation lives in a world with far greater opportunities, one with abundance of choice. Present day is all abt change. But would change affect our friendship? Would taking dat new job mean forgetting ur old colleagues? Would leaving the country mean leaving ur frens behind? its a question of how much effort we're willing to make, and im not sure for myself. I've already expierenced in my short 20yrs the replacement of old frens with new ones when i change schs or move towards the next stage of life. It sucks. So im making effort, now, to rekindle those past relations. I shouldn't be replacing frens, i shud be accummulating! haha. I'm a firm believer that your best frens r those u've known the longest. Im not saying ur nusery buddies are all ure best frens, im saying the ones who've spent the most part in ur life r ur best frens. I've had really close frens in pri sch, sec sch and jc but nvr one from pri sch till now. I've been replacing u see. But they've all played major parts in shaping who i am today, and they deserve better! Its friends for life not that stage in life. So, i swear, today, that i'll always keep in touch with these jems and i hope they'll do the same for me.

On another note, i attended smu's freshmen bash at MOS last night. As usual, there was a pageant. Weren't too impressed with the contestants. always seems to be the case huh? haha anyways my interest wasn't the pageant, it was meeting someone. I'll call her 'Ah hoon'. So who's ah hoon? Has brennan been smittened by yet another girl? well... the answer is NO. Ah hoon is the person my buddy, let's call him Mr. DHL, been head over heels over since he went smu. From what i've heard frm mr. dhl and from what i've seen from yesterday, its no wonder. But why was yesterday a disppointment? becuz mr. dhl is so so so so so HUM CHEE!!! it was bordering pathetic! Maybe the nite started on the wrong foot. let me explain. It was juz the 2 of us meeting for dinner as the rest were running late, so we settled for the nearby Macs. Low and behold, we bump into them: ah hoon, bryan if im not wrong (who's his fiercest competitor) and another female fren from the OG. Ok, bryan's supposed to be some former PTI in his NSF days. i.e. Hunky. But personally i think he's so-so and im not being bias. ok maybe i am haha. anyways, we dun need to guess who was sitting next to ah hoon rite? So at our table, mr dhl tells me dat he had casually asked ah hoon earlier if she wud like to join us for dinner, and here she is sitting nxt to mr. former pti. haha.. bummer.. but hey, who wud choose dining with strangers (well, turned out to be only me) over dining with 2 other OG frens? Of course if she had seen how i look like, her choice wud hav been different hahahah. anyways dat was dat. We bumped into them again in MOS while watching the pageant. So while the other guys were swarming her infront, mr dhl was 5/6 feet behind with me doin nothing but appear hapless and gutted. As i edged him to at least strike up a conversation with her, he keeps telling me he can't leave me behind for his OG, claiming how we go way back while he juz met his OG... pls.. i wasn't even alone la.. i had kim our korean fren and his korean fren he introduced, Claire (her korean name's hae young)!!! Unsurprisingly, we lost them after the pageant was over while getting drinks. In a bid to lift his spirits up, we dragged him to the dance floor.. to no avail tho.. he juz stood there looking all sad and pathetic. even my crazy antics on the dance floor could only bring a brief smile on his face. I even took him for a walk ard the dance floor in a bid to find ah hoon. Juz when we gave up and resumed dancing with claire and kim i saw his eyes shift. he must hav spotted her! so i quickly pushed him forward, edging him on. But once i mentioned dat i was goin to leave him alone with ah hoon, he chickens out and tries to lead me the wrong way but i swore i saw a glimspe of her and changed his direction. But alas, we could not find her.. maybe i had saw wrongly. haiz.. Anyways, mr dhl didn't stay much longer after dat and was the 1st to bade us farewell. sigh.. i mean.. i made more progress with claire den he has with ah hoon la.. dats juz sad. i must think of something to change his self-confidence.. he can't let her slip away!!!

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