hmmm.. suppose to be doin mu english assigment now, but mental block la! haiz, such an easy assignment yet i can't churn up anything! can't seem to focus now, my heartbeat is irregular! haha.. so decided to blog, to clear my thoughts and emotions. Its been nearly a month in adelaide.. boy how time fies! my overseas stints with saf nvr felt so quick! haha.. well, im not complaining...
To those who are curious, im not homesick at all! I dun even miss our local food haha.. i guess im pretty resilient. Sch's been alright, but i wished it could be more challenging. This bridging cse was designed to prepare me for uni but i dun feel prepared at all! Sometimes i feel im wasting time and money. I feel i work better under stress. (but of cuz not too pressurised either) Im not highly motivated by nature, sigh..so gotta learn how to push myself.
Got an econs test on fri, my first test in 3 yrs?!? oh wait, i did a surprised math test on the first day of orientation. haha.. anyways, i was really confused with the various concepts up until today. Thankfully, i was able to regain clarity after today's lesson. Its all in the graphs! So im hoping to do well! Nxt up wud be computing, think its on Mon, better check with my classmates.. gonna be tested on ms word haha.. may sound ridiculous, but i really learnt alot of useful functions etc. dun understimate lessons on word haha.
Damn it! arrgghh.. still can't focus... hmmm i hav to get it off my chest!!! Is it wrong to try to find faults with a potential gf?!? i feel im over-analysing things! Every little thing she says, her dislikes, her preferences, her quirky side, her opinions.. do they match with mine? or do they clash? It seems dat im fighting my heart, my intuition, my emotions with logic! y am i focusing on the negatives and not the positives? its too soon, i shudn't be feelin this way. arrgghh... such torture! i shud wait it out, its only my 4th wk. there's no rush rite? i'll meet someone more suited for me in the future rite? juz so difficult to reason with the heart! argghh.. feel so uneasy now juz cuz i didn't speak to her today (juz couple of smiles and waves of hi/bye). its so ridculous! hahaha..
ok this is not helping! haiz.. gotta get back to the assignment! ciao
